to dance forever

2008-10-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE!

I will be officially transferring to livejournal as of today. :D
Please visit & relink me @ austereclarity.livejournal.com!
Thanks!

BYE.

2008-10-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

Fangirling is so time consuming- but SO DARN WORTH IT!
I'm so crazy over my new idol right now~ he's so talented in dancing, singing, acting &&&& he's UBER good looking!! : DDDDD
Yamada Ryosuke!! (^W^)
Seriously, in Tantei Gakuen Q, he acts UBER WELL as Amakusa Ryuu.
Which is another character I'm going crazy over!

Introducing Amakusa Ryuu, a.k.a Ryuu-kun: good-looking (very much so), cool, calm, collected, mysterious, has a complicated background, smart (VERYVERY), caring (in his own way), modest (very), silent &&& so much more that I absolutely cannot describe! xD
TANTEI GAKUEN Q IS THE LOVE.

RIGHT, okay. Calm down. :D
Tmr's the "official" last day of school- 23rd Oct. Not for the Sec 3s lurh obviously. WE have lessons till 5 Nov. >_>
Anyways, going to school tomorrow is kinda' pointless seeing as all we have to do is cleancleanclean the classrooms. -..-
Don't feel like going to school~ but I wanna' spazz with abi and che!! :D
Hahahah, abigail, remember the "drama" we were talking abt today during lunch? ;D
AHAHAH. YOU NEVER KNOW! > that's what you always say eh?
You might meet Yuto on the streets of somewhere and hahaha, please don't do what you're planning to do dear~ DANGEROUS! :D

Sometimes, fate has a funny way of showing us how to love.

2008-10-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

HEY EVERYONE! :DDD

I'm back from my Hiatus! FINALLY. The examinations have ended, the results are all back & we're starting to feel that the exams are indeed over. ((:
AND! I've finally watched finish "It Started With A Kiss" season 1 & 2 :D I'ld seriously say that it's definitely one of DA BEST SHOWS EVER! The last part was REALLY *swoons*
So sweet & innocent lurh their love. (:
Okay, shadn't rant so much here, it'll get irritating considering that I've been talking bout' it alrd.
hahaha!

Been contemplating on alot these few days.. About lortsa things.. School, friends, relationships.
Ahhh. It's so.. complicated.
For my FYE results, I can definitely say I deserve the horrible results >_> Cause' I only started studying the last 2 wks although I "planned" to study a month before. And I wasn't even studying properly. *sigh*
Gotta' work harder for next year's o'lvls. :/ it ain't gonna' be easy.
I just hope that I can reach my goal- now that I've finally gotten one. Dare I say it aloud? No, I'ld better not. I don't even think that I'll reach my goal, but at least I've got one right now that I can work towards. The journey matters more than the destination. (: If I DO reach it in the end, then all the more better. If I don't, well, at least I've tried.
But I don't even know why I've suddenly chosen this goal.

I'm rly afraid for next year;
> If I'll study hard enough
> If I can actually make it pass sec 4
> If JCAT wld end up in the same JC
> If I can finish that part of the journey to be one step closer to my dream
> If I can make it up to someone- like I've been promising myself to

Okay, not so long update today cause' I've no idea what to write. heh. Gonna' finish up my homework now so that I can continue watching my dramas!! (:

" Love beyond the glory is a quality of a true hero"

2008-09-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

"In this classic protrayal, nobody knows who you are; so seal the secret in your heart, keep it safe & never let it out to those who can lie to you"

Finally, the race for FYEs is here. Not sure if I'm supposed to be happy that the year is coming to an end or sad that I've to study till my brains melt. -..-
Ahh well, we'll see.

I'm finally at episode 116! :D Just in case your don't know what I'm talking about, I'm currently head-over-heels crazy about the korean drama- HEART OF NINETEEN! OMGOODNESS ME. It's awesome! *hearts*
A bit draggy at first, but certainly worth the watch! I'm going to finish watching it no matter what, so I'm going to have to sacrifice some of my other time. It has 157 episodes, oh my goodness. LOL, but my mum and I managed to finish 116 episodes by the end of the September holidays, starting from last monday :D
hahaha, jiayou to us ^^
Not that I'm going to neglect my studies for the k-drama, but still, I can't resist not watching it. xD
AND. It's has also helped my Mandrin improve a lot, which is really good cause' my Mandrin's been going downhill. :/

Anyhow, this is my last post before the end of the FYEs, which is the 8Oct.
- Or maybe I'll just post something up when I've finished watching HEART OF NINETEEN :D
Hahahha. Okay, sayonara to everyone till' then :D

2008-09-05T03:55:00.001-07:00

What would you do if fate tore you apart?
What would you do if right at this moment, it is the end of the world?
What would you do if no one you knew was left in this world?
What would you do if your soul mate disappears?
What would you do if your best friend betrays you?
What would you do if knew that you weren't going to survive tomorrow?
What would you do if HE kisses you tonight?
What would you do if you were suddenly five again?
What would you do if you saw the Lord?
What would you do if you could never do the thing you loved most again?
What would you do if you had to face the world alone, yet you were suddenly terribly shy?
What would you do if you got disfigured in a freak accident?
What would you do if you had to choose between your best friend and soul mate?
What would you do if you had to choose between your life and your family's future?
What would you do if the were left alone to die?
What would you do if you got abandoned in a foreign country?
What would you do if you got sold as a slave?
What would you do if everyone turned their backs onto you?
What would you do if you knew that you could change the world?
What would you do if you could have all the riches in the world?
What would you do if you were stuck together with a person you hated for 17hrs in a broom closet?
What would you do if you had to betray your conscience to save your life?
What would you do if your son did something unforgivable and turned to you for help?

What would you do if all these happened to you.

2008-09-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

Right, before I continue on with my chemistry holiday assignment, I've decided to blog about somethings that I've thought about- courtesy of Cheryl :D

Time.
In the essence of it, how many people truly appreciates what it gives to us? Maybe we grumble about how it just whizzes past us without stopping. Or how we don't ever have enough to do the things we want to do. Or even how slow it crawls by sometimes.
Is it truly time that is doing all that, or us?

Just like love.
What is love without the heartbreak, the tears, the hate, the fights and most importanly, what is love without risking your heart?
How does anyone ever realize that what you feel for that person is truly love? Does the realization come as a sudden thought, or a punch in the gut, or even just that warm feeling settling over?

Just like friendship.
The very basis of it varies from person to person, and yet is the same to everyone. Would it still be that friendship that you remember without fighting, gossiping, heart-to-heart chats, understanding and trust? Would the people within that bond stay as strong, as together without some lies, some blatantly crude comments, some gossiping around behind another's back? Perhaps it may seem wrong under the watchful eye of justice, but isn't this just being human? Everyone makes mistakes, and I guess, I believe that only the strongest of friendships can survive the weathered storms.

Just like freedom.
Without feeling caged, would be ever have thought about freedom? Without wanting something, desiring something to the point of breaking, would anyone ever long for this 7 letter word? And yet, what is truly freedom in its purest form? Being free is still somewhat being caged. Being caged is still being somewhat free. Controversial as it is, I think many misunderstand the life in this.

Just like passion.
That fire in you, electrifying your very being. That looseness and finality in it. That drug that keeps us fighting for what we want and love. That statement of truth weaved between the lies that unknowingly slips out of us everyday. The colours that we bring into our soul. With this within us, how is hate so different from love then?

*Ahh, I know I'm being random But it's what I've been thinking about since Cheryl talked to me about her would-be blogpost during Chemistry on Tuesday (:

2008-09-03T09:13:00.000-07:00

##Stolen from Melissa *2*

Bold all of the Disney movies you have seen:
Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
Pinocchio (1940)
Fantasia (1940)
Dumbo (1941)
The Reluctant Dragon (1941)
Bambi (1942)
Saludos Amigos (1942)
Victory Through Air Power (1943)
The Three Caballeros (1944)
Make Mine Music (1946)
Song of the South (1946)
Fun and Fancy Free (1947)
Melody Time (1948)
So Dear to My Heart (1949)
The Adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad (1949)
Cinderella (1950)
Alice in Wonderland (1951)
Peter Pan (1953)
Lady and the Tramp (1955)
Sleeping Beauty (1959)
One Hundred and One Dalmatians (1961)
The Sword in the Stone (1963)
Mary Poppins (1964)
The Jungle Book (1967)
The Aristocats (1970)
Bedknobs and Broomsticks (1971)
Robin Hood (1973)
Pete's Dragon (1977)
The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)
The Rescuers (1977)
The Fox and the Hound (1981)
Tron (1982)
The Black Cauldron (1985)
The Great Mouse Detective (1986)
Oliver & Company (1988)
Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988)
The Little Mermaid (1989)
The Rescuers Down Under (1990)
DuckTales the Movie: Treasure of the Lost Lamp (1990)
Beauty and the Beast (1991)
Aladdin (1992)
Cool Runnings (1993)
The Nightmare Before Christmas (1993)
The Lion King (1994)
Toy Story (1995)
A Goofy Movie (1995)
Pocahontas (1995)
Tom and Huck (1995)
Muppet Treasure Island (1996)
James and the Giant Peach (1996)
The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)'
101 Dalmatians (live action version) (1996)
Hercules (1997)
George of the Jungle (1997)
Air Bud (1997)
Flubber (1997)Mulan (1998)
A Bug's Life (1998)
Mighty Joe Young (1998)
Toy Story 2 (1999)
Doug's 1st Movie (1999)
Inspector Gadget (1999)
Tarzan (1999)
Fantasia 2000 (1999)
The Tigger Movie (2000)
The Emperor's New Groove (2000)
Dinosaur (2000)
Monsters, Inc. (2001)
Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)
Recess: School's Out (2001)
Return to Never Land (2002)
Lilo & Stitch (2002)
Treasure Planet (2002)
Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003)
Brother Bear (2003)
Finding Nemo (2003)
The Jungle Book 2 (2003)
Piglet's Big Movie (2003)
National Treasure (2004)
Home on the Range (2004)
Teacher's Pet (2004)
The Incredibles (2004)
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (2005)
Pooh's Heffalump Movie (2005)
Chicken Little (2005)
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest (2006)
High School Musical (2006)
Cars (2006)
Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End (2007)
High School Musical 2 (2007)
Meet the Robinsons (2007)
Ratatouille (2007)
Enchanted (2007)
Wall-E (2008)

2008-09-03T08:57:00.000-07:00

##Stole this from Melissa

1.Do you believe in spirits haunting houses? Yup.

2. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? Hmm, interesting question (:

3. Where is your home town? Singapore ?

4. What is you favorite mexican food? Uhmm, not sure? But I like salsa + chips, enchilatas (spelling error) and tacos :D

5. Has anything scary ever happened to you that was hard to believe? Yeah..

6. What weird habits did you have when you were younger? Uhm, I don't exactly remember..

7. Hav you ever wished by pulling apart a wishbone? Nope.

8. What part of your body currently smells funny? Nowhere o_o I just showered.

9. Would you rather live in a small or big house? Big if there's a lot of people, small if there's only
a few people there (:

10. What's something not many people know about you? That I can be quite outgoing probably.?

11. What hobby of yours calms you down? Dancing, reading, listening to music, sketching, sitting at my brother's balcony to think

12. Does the Discovery Channel interest you? All the time (:

13. Who was your first best friend? Lingling.

14. Would you know what to do if there was a zombie uprising? Hmm...

15. Do you listen to hardcore music? Not sure?

16. Do you own/want a Sidekick? No o.o Everyone's equal.

17. Who do you know has the prettiest hair? Lisa Yap (:

18. What's the most colorful thing in your closet? Probably my yellow dress-tshirt?

19. Do you know anyone that can touch their nose with their tongue? Andrea :D

20. Can you unwrap a Starburst in your mouth? Nope, don't think so.

21. When was the last time you were disappointed? Today, cause' I didn't have enough money to
buy the cute lil' baskets I saw at Daiso! :/

22. Are you guilty of taking pictures of yourself when you go out? Maybe xD

23. Do you know how to change a baby's diaper? Yup.

24. What do you think about Kim Kardashian? Huh? Who..?

25. Have you ever watched the Proud Family? Yesh.

26. What do you like to do in your spare time? Practice ballet, read, watch tv, listen to music,
talk (:

27. How do you picture your dream wedding? HAHAHAH. On a beach or in the garden of the house of my fiance, wearing a simple but elegant wedding dress & flower/clover wreath, surrounded by all my loved ones :D

28. Is there someone you've lost contact with and miss talking to? 2G2'07 people-esp JEANNETTE ( I haven't lost contact with them tho, just miss talking to them) & Nicholas.

29. Did you ever undress Barbie dolls to see what was underneath? Uhm, don't remember doing so?

30. Who is your favorite Pokemon? Pikachu! :D

31. Where is your family from? Singapore.

32. What's you favorite part of a carnival? The small lil' shops, food & FUN. (:

33. Do you know someone that goes to McDonalds and orders burgers without meat? No.

34. What movie are you excited to come out on DVD? HYD FINAL!!

35. What Disney movie reminds you of your childhood? Eloise at the Plaza. Cause' I used to be really imaginative. (:

36. Do you like Ingrid Michaelson's music? Who..?

37. Do the Saw movie gross you out? Never watched it before.

38. Do you have a favorite show on Cartoon Network? Scooby Doo & Courage The Cowardly Dog. (:

39. What would you like to be known for in the future? Professional dancer/Prima ballerina/Counsellor

40. Do you like Butterfingers? Uhm, meaning?

41. Do you like the smell of Sharpies? Never really took note of the smell o_o

42. What's the most amount of money you've seen in front of you? Uhm, not really sure.

43. What color is your favorite jacket? Sky blue! :D

44. What project did you enter for the science fair? Don't have one.

45. Can you handle looking at someone being operated on? Maybe..?

46. If you were sent to prison, do you think you'd survive? Most likely..

47. How do you change a flat tire? Unscrew the damn thing & rescrew the correct one.- okay, I have no idea how to change a flattire.

48. Which of your male friends has good fashion sense? I don't exactly have a lot of male friends. -..-

49. How do you want to change the world? No idea.

50. What makes you an individual? I'm just me :D

2008-09-03T08:53:00.000-07:00

##Stolen from Mandy (:

THE REALIZED QUIZ
1. I've come to realise that I love :
Dance more than I could have ever realized.

2. I've come to realise that my last EX :
Never existed.

3. I've come to realise that I say :
I love four-leaf clovers! :D

4. I've come to realise that I have :
The BEST FRIENDS anyone could ever wish for.

5. I've come to realise that I have lost :
And gained more in return.

6. I've come to realise that I hate :
Showing others my vulnerable side.

7. I've come to realise that marriage is :
Something that I shouldn't ever think about.

8. I've come to realise that the best :
People in my life are already there.

9. I've come to realise that I will always be :
Having that passion for DANCE.

10. I've come to realise that love :
Cannot be felt without the heartbreak, tears & risking your heart.

11 . I've come to realise that the last time I cried was :
Because I was disappointed in myself.

12. I've come to realise that when I wake up in the morning :
I'm grateful for still being alive.

13. I've come to realise that before I went to sleep at night :
I was thinking about the future.

14. I've come to realise that right now :
I could be doing something fufilling- LIKE LEARNING DANCE AS A MAJOR PART OF MY STUDIES!

15 . I've come to realise that babies :
Are one the best treasures in life. :D

16 . I've come to realise that I get on myspace :
It will be the next century. :D

17. I've come to realise that today :
I've discovered something new about my friends.

18. I've come to realise that tonight :
Is as boring as ever.

19. I've come to realise that tomorrow :
Will be a day of studying. -..-

20. I've realise that I really want :
To go overseas and study.

2008-09-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

Stolen#

[10] FIRSTS
First Best Friend: LingLing.
First Screen Name: Raindrop.
First Pet: A goldfish that I didn't name.
First Piercing: Around the year 1999.
First Crush: SECRET XD
First CD: A Ricky Martin CD.
First Car: Haven't got one-YET. (:
First Stuffed Animal: Teletubies-PO.
First Place Called Home: Clementi Ave 2.

[9] LASTS
Last Beverage: Apple & Promegrannate juice.
Last Car Ride: My mum's car.
Last Movie Seen: Money No Enough.
Last Phone Call: With Cheryl.
Last Song You Listened To: Love, Me-Collin Raye.
Last Bubble Bath: Bout' a year ago? Or two maybe.. Can't rmbr LOL :D
Last Time You Cried: Yesterday, when I got my ballet results.
Last Thing You Ate: Japanese rice crackers.
Last Bad Thing You Did: Skipped my English tuition class. Ended up spending the time talking to Cheryl and eating mashed potatoes in Tanglin Mall's food court. :D

[ 8 ] HAVE YOU EVERS
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: Nope.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: Nadah.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Nope.
Have You Ever Been On A Limo: No, but I want to :D
Have You Ever Cheated: Hmm, depends on what form of cheating.. XD
Have You Ever Been In Love: Don't think so.
Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident: Yeah, a minor one.
Have You Ever Broken A Bone: No, thank goodness.

[ 7 ] THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
01 Shorts
02 Clips (Is this counted?)
03 T-shirt
04 Spectacles
05 ----
06 ----
07 ----

[ 6 ] THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
01 Ate
02 Slept
03 Watched tv
04 Had tuition
05 Spoke on the phone
06 Read a book

[ 5 ] FAVOURITE THINGS
01 FOUR-LEAF CLOVERS
02 Dancing :D
03 My ballet shoes
04 Having H2H
05 Writing poems

[ 4 ] PEOPLE YOU TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
01 My mum xD
02 Cheryl
03 Abigail
04 My sketchbook

[ 3 ] CHOICES
1. Black Or White: White
2. Hot Or Cold: Depends..
3. Chocolate Or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE =P

[ 2 ] YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
01 Travel around the world with my bests friends.
02 DANCE IN AN INTERNATIONAL CONCERT AS THE MAIN DANCER! :D

[ 1 ] THING YOU REGRET
Not going up to someone to talk before they disappeared again.

2008-09-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

Went ice-skating today with Yunyi, Lisa T. and Lisa Y. :D
Was so awesome okay! Hahaha, Lisa Y. really knows how to skate! She looks so graceful and natural on the ice, man do I feel inferior to her.
Heh, finally got the hang of skating (:
And suprisingly, it was within the first hour! Past few times I went skating, even after 2hrs plus I still cldn skate. Weird huh.
Hahah, was fun! Lisa T. was freezing throughout. LOL! Yeah, and Yunyi and I were uber hungry. I kept eating non-stop- ARGH! I'm gonna be FATT. :/
Oh ya! And I didn't realize that there was this vending machine for cup noodles there! =D
We ate that for lunch, and some other titbits for me.
But we didn't manage to skate for the whole day this time, only till arnd 3.30pm cause' Yunyi had to leave early..
I stopped at 3.oopm cause' my legs were really sore and I was hungry- AGAIN. -..-"
I'm thinking it was cause' of the Pas De Chat, Changement & Dance that I did on Saturday during ballet that my leg is still sore till today.
Ahh well, can't wait to go ice-skating with them and JCAT again! :D
FAST SKATING THIS TIME! (:
Whheee~

Sad thing to all of these is: REMEDIAL FROM 9AM-2.30PM tmr :/
DAMN IT. Why does the teachers ALWAYS have to be so mean?
On top of that, I have NACLI. :/
Life just keeps getting better and better huh.

2008-08-31T09:10:00.000-07:00

Just got back my ballet results yesterday after class.. Didn do as well as I expected :/
Wanted a Distinction in something that I really love, and something that I think I can actually excel in and love at the same time, but I still cldn't. Whilst sitting and reflecting, I realized that maybe I could have put in a little more effort in my ballet exam.
I'd wanted to see how well I could do without practicing, to see if I was actually good at something without putting in the effort. Guess that sounds kinda' greedy huh? But between my studies and everything else, I wanted to prove to myself, once and for all, that I COULD be good at something. that I had a real passion for. That dance was and will always be there for me to turn to, be in in happiness or in pain.
But it's not the case. Work harder the next time then, especially at my footwork.
Btw, my score is 70/100. Merit.

Went back to my primary school on Friday, not intending to meet anyone or talk to anyone other than my teachers. But fate had to play this cruel joke on me and have what, half my cohort come back to visit the teachers. >_>
Ah whatever. My ex-classmates just gave this awkward hello and grimaced before walking away or looking away. Only Huiyao was nice enough to actually give me a sincere smile and talk to me. Expected.
Well, gave my principal a present and wished her and most of my teachers a "Happy Teacher's Day" before walking around the school, remeniscing bout' the good ole' times. *sigh*
Decided to say 'Hi' to the auntie of my fav. stall back then, bought the 50cents wedges and sat down, looking at the cute lil' kids rushing about. HAHAHA. They really ARE SO ADORABLE :D
Then, for some unknown reason, I turned back just as I was about to leave to talk to Lingling, who also went back. And yeah, she told me something that left me shell-shocked for like 5 minutes.
He went back. The first time since forever. He went back. She pointed him out to me.
*sigh* Saw him and stared without realizing it, till he turned back. I quickly turned away and then,
He was gone.
Went back after that cause' Abi was still at her primary school.

>End of my absolutely boring life.

2008-08-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

Really exhausted right now. Like really, really exhausted. :/
Today was.. unusually fun :D Cause all throughout Chinese lesson, Che, Abi & I were having a H-H whilst 'listening' to laoshi teach, AND all through geog too! =D
Aww man~ it was great! But Jessa wasn't there again
-..-

Had CWO after school, which was actually fun too! Hahah, reason being that the JCAT family was having a small H-H whilst plucking out the weeds in the parade square. ((:
Went to IMM after that with Abigail on our mission for teacher's day presents! But our first destination was.. SUBWAY! XD
I love the wrap! It's ohh-soo DELICIOUSIOUS! (:
Mhhmm.. Let's go eat it again Abi!
After that, went off to Daiso where we had a great time being lame (mostly me) & shopping around. YAY! hahah. I bought my four-leaf clover stickers and some cute papers! *heart*
Went to kopitiam to buy dinner for my family when I realized I was seriously left with VERY little money ):
Gotta' save up again! Or else Nov/Dec won't have enough money for shopping! :/

I'm actually supposed to be chionging my homework now, but I'm just so damn tired.

2008-08-25T05:49:00.000-07:00

It's hard yet not forgotten
I've seen and I've felt.
I've been cut, I've been hurt.
It's a touch of eternity.

Remnants trickle down wounds
Inflicting yet again another pain.
Sighs of relieved joy
Lost in the breath of sight.

Consequences that follow
Lost in the minds of hers.
Kept deep within the empty soul
The kiss of midnight.

Memories of tommorow
Unpredictable yesterday- still there.
Candles flicker away with sunset
The last touch of the beginning.

Butterflies; symbolism of hope
Mine already sealed shut.
With a doom of fate.
Spirits aghast, away.

2008-08-25T05:39:00.000-07:00

I've no idea where the burst of anger came from this evening.
But I'm seriously angry this time. Not even irritated anymore, wayy wayy past that.
Cause it's not just a one-time thing that I've delusioned myself to keep thinking. It's repeating again and again and everytime I try to stop myself and think twice bout' my actions, I end up bottling up another black anger.
It's no different this time, I can tell.
Because this time I was only allowed to let out that little bit.
There's still the whole bottle. Who knows what will happen the next time?
I just hope the lid is always closed tight, cause' once it's open; there's no turning back.
I don't want that to happen. I don't want to be sealed tight in an enclosed shell of ice.
Such that I've no idea what to do anymore.

2008-08-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

Stolen from Mandy (:

If I were a month I would be: January (:

If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday!

If I were a time of day I would be: 9pm.

If I were a planet I would be: Venus/Saturn.

If I were an animal I would be: Uhm, a fox or swan? (:

If I were a piece of furniture I would be: A wooden gate.

If I were a historical figure I would be: The Fountain Of Trevi? :D ( I'M JOKING!! )

If I were a liquid I would be: Rainwater.

If I were a tree I would be: A willow tree.

If I were a flower/plant I would be: A red carnation/ white snowdrop

If I were a kind of weather I would be: A thunderstorm.

If I were a musical instrument I would be: A piano.

If I were an emotion I would be: Passion. [ JOKING! (: I have no idea actl]

If I were a color I would be: Red/white.

If I were a fruit I would be: A tomato.

If I were a sound I would be: Music.

If I were an element I would be: Fire

If I were a car I would be: A ferrari (:

If I were a song I would be: Falling Star. (It's some piano scale that I have no idea is by who)

If I were a movie I would be: Ms Global Unlame ( I'm kidding ok! :D )

If I were a book I would be: Ms Global Unlame Copyrighted ( OK REALLY IM KIDDING! XD )

If I were a food I would be: Cha Soba.

If I were a place I would be: Somewhere out of this world :D

If I were a number I would be: 7.

If I were a word I would be:

If I were an object I would be: FOUR LEAF CLOVER!!

If I were a body part I would be: The eyes.

If I were a facial expression I would be: :D

2008-08-21T09:31:00.000-07:00

All the quizzes are stolen from Mandy xD

1. How do people see you?
Everything I'm Not; The Veronicas
[ sometimes it's true :x ]

2. What does your crush think of you?
That Was Then; Jesse McCartney
[ SAD. I have no chance then :/ ]

3. What will you be like when you're older?
Trouble Is; Backstreet Boys

4. What will your dying wishes be?
Say Goodbye; Chris Brown
[ Hahahah, maybe it would be? xD ]

5. What do you want everyone to know about you?
Invincible; Jesse McCartney

6. How will you confess your feelings to your true love?
Slow Down; Corrinne May
[ Makes some sense :D ]

7. What song will they play at your funeral?
I'm Ready; Drew Seeley
[ Wow, that makes so much sense ]

8. What is your current theme song?
You and Me; Lifehouse

9. If you get put in front of everyone you know you would say what?
Anything
[ Yeap, I just might blabber anything that comes out of my mouth -.- ]

10. What song describes you best?
Just My Imagination; The Cranberries
[ Heh. Ironic ]

11. What should you be doing now?
Don't Stop Movin' ; S Club
[ YEAH. TOTALLY RIGHT. But I'm too tired ]

12. What's next week gonna be like?
Bout It' ; 3LW/Yung Joc

13. What's the last thing you want to say before you leave my quiz?
Angel To You, Devil To Me; The Click Five
[ O_O ]

2008-08-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

Stolen- again, from Mandy xD
Its that music thing where you put your iPod (WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER!) on shuffle and yeah.

1. How am I feeling today?
Genie In A Bottle; Christina Aguilera

2. Do you want to get married?
Only Time; Enya

3. What is my best friend's theme song?
The Flight Of Life; Chester Tan
[ HAHAHA. Ok, ironic much? ]

4. What is high school like?
All About Us; TATU
[ Sounds egoistical man~ ]

What's Your Name?
Breathless; The Corrs
[ HUH. NO WAY O.O ]

5. What is the best thing about me?
Make A Memory; Bon Jovi
[ does this mean that I have a good memory? ]

6. How is today going to be?
4ever; The Veronicas
[ HAHAHA. nice if the day was AWESOME (: ]

7. What is in store for this weekend?
What I've done; Linkin Park
[ Oh man~ I hope not. I did not do well for the tests.]

8. What song describes my parents?
Who's Afraid Of The Big Bad Wolf; Pinto Colvig, Mary Moder, Dorothy Compton, Billy Bletcher
[ OMG. IRONIC! XD ]

9. How is my life going?
Our Love Will Always Last; sbs
[ HUHHHH. ]

10. What song will they play at my funeral?
She's No You; Jesse McCartney
[ And this is supposed to mean..? ]

11. How does the world see me?
Give Your Heart; sbs

12. What do my friends really think of me?
Music Box; Mariah Carey
[ ok, weird. This quiz is getting so o.o ]

13. Do people secretly lust after me?
Circle of Life; Carmen Twillie & Lebo M.

14. How can I make myself happy?
Thunder; Boys Like Girls
[ Yeah probably xD I love thunderstorms! ]

15. What should I do with my life?
Goodbye; The Corrs
[ I should.. leave then? (: ]

16. Will I ever have children?
Lips Of An Angel
[ My children will have lips of an angel? o.o ]

17. What is some good advice?
See Your Heart; OST
[ HAHAHHA. SO TRUE XD ]

18. What do I think my current theme song is?
One In A Million; Hannah Montana
[ Okay, weird]

19. What does everyone else think about my current life?
Waiting For Your Love; sbs
[ Okay I hope not. I'm not gonna' wait around for someone who isn't right for me ]

20. What type of women/men do you like?
On The Treetops; Chester Tan
[ I love Tarzan!! xD ]

21. Will you get married?
Never Believe In Love Again; Chester Tan
[ YEAP SO TRUE. Answers the question too, I'm NOT gonna' get married]

22. What should I do with my love life?
Me and You; Cassie

23. Where will you live?
Because of You

24. What will your dying words be?
The Real Breathe; Norwegian Recycling
[ Hahaha, sounds so dhali lama-ish :D ]

25. When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say...
What Makes You Different; Backstreet Boys

26. When my parents are angry I say...
Five Loaves and Two Fishes; Corrinne May
[ NICE ONE XD ]

2008-08-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

Stole this from Mandy- a long time ago :D

1. How does the world see you?
Bye Bye Bye; Nsync
[ HAHAHA. The world doesn't like me- ): ]

2. Will I have a happy life?
Truly, Madly, Deeply; Savage Garden
[ AWESOME XD ]

3. What do my friends really think of me?
Purest of Pain; Son By Four
[ o.o I'm sad T_T My friends think that I'm a pain in the butt ]

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Garden of Eternity; Chester Tan
[ HAHAHAH. THAT'S WEIRD. ]

5. How can I make myself happy?
Summertime; New Kids On The Block
[ TOTALLY! I WANT SUMMER IN CANADA! XD ]

6. What should I do with my life?
Built For Speed; American Hi-Fi
[ UHM. OK? ]

7. What is some good advice for me?
Love Will Keep You Up All Night; Backstreet Boys
[ YEAH. GOOD ADVICE. I SHALL NOT FALL IN LOVE THEN XD ]

8. How will I be remembered?
The Best Of Both Worlds; Hannah Montana
[ HAHAHA. I'LL HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS? XD ]

9. What is my signature dancing song?
Jump; Lil' Josh
[ COOL! I LIKE THIS SONG! :D ]

10. What do I think my current theme song is?
The Best Damn Thing; Avril Lavigne
[ OMG NO!!! TTnTT ]

11. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
This I Promise You; Nsync'
[ EHHM. OK? ]

12. What song will play at my funeral?
Jumpin'; Keke Palmer
[ HAHAHA. THAT SHOULD BE HILARIOUS! XD ]

13. What type of men/women do you like?
Papercut; Linkin Park
[ MAKE NO SENSE. ]

14. What is my day going to be like?
Colours Of The Wind; Vanessa Williams
[ OK? SHOULD BE FUN THEN XD ]

15. What will tomorrow bring?
Lose Control; Missy Elliot
[ YEAH MAN XD CAN'T WAIT! ]

2008-08-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

Stolen from Mandy (:

If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
Walk away without a sound, and just leave.

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be a professional dancer in training at an Arts School overseas, with my best friends & having a hell of a time. :D
Ohh! And owning EVERY SINGLE FOUR LEAF CLOVER THING there is to own! : DDD

What is your favourite television show?
Hmm, too many to name out xD

Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
Yes. I've absolutely no idea where my future will take me.

Preferably, what type of music?
Ballads, oldies, classical, SOME new-age.

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
If that person truly loves me, then maybe forever? I wouldn't know, cause' I don't exactly believe in "true love" anymore.

If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
Give it all up. It's not fair to anyone if I continue liking him.

Is being tagged fun?
Not sure? :D

How do you see yourself in ten years time?
[ HOPEFULLY]
Training with a professional dance company & still in contact with all my friends. Still belonging to the JCAT family & maybe...( THOUGH I KNOW IT'S DAMN IMPOSSIBLE) with someone I like?
Strike that last part, it ain't possible.

Who are currently most important people to you?
My family & friends.

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Uhm, no one tagged me. I stole this quiz frm Mandeh. xD

Would you rather to be single and rich or married but poor?
Depends..

What's the first thing you do every morning?
Groan and fall back asleep. (:

If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
If I had a choice and am able to, I'll probably pick neither. But if I didn't have a choice,I'll probably pick the one whom I think I truly and sincerely love.
[This question sounds so like the Edward-Bella-Jacob-triangle-love-story]

If given the chance to turn back time, will you?
No, because now I believe that things happen that way for a reason. And turning back time won't change anything. Cause' in the end, it'll all end up in the same way.

What is the last thing you would do before you die?
Good question.

8 people to be tagged:
Anybody. xD

2008-08-21T08:24:00.001-07:00

I thought I knew. I thought I was reading the whole book when in fact, I haven't seem to have finished the cover page.
I once thought that I've already reached the other side of this towering obstacle, but right now I realize that I'm not even halfway there.
The fantasy that I thought I was living in finally protrayed it's dark side.
It showed me that not everything is what you thought it was. Through those smiles and laughter hides secret truths and draped over lies in dark corners.
It showed me the pseudo in everyone.
It showed me the unintentional cruelty of authors' brushes & paints.
It showed me that vulnerability was my greatest mistake.
It showed me that being who I used to be is still the best precaution.
Maybe it's just me. Just me. But it's who I am, and I will do all it takes from getting the final blow.
It's too hard now. The facade of steely silhouette is wavering. The threads are coming loose at the seams. The claustrophobic walls of isolation presses down and strikes the soul with electrifying desperateness.
Deep. Deeper. Deep down under; drowning at the borders of Man's last sancutary.
Riding.. Running.. Disappearing into the fading innocence.
I can't take it anymore. It's using the last of my strength not to break that smile.

2008-08-20T07:17:00.000-07:00

I guess sometimes everyone forgets. Nobody's perfect right?
But sometimes we have to learn about consequences, and the reason some things are the way they are.
I don't know why it affects me so much.
It shouldn't right?
Maybe it's cause I let myself be vulnerable again.
Maybe now it's time to stop all that. Go back to the beginning.

2008-08-17T08:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHE XD

Okay, I'm so sorry but this was supposed to be up on 020808. But I was on Haitus at that time. Heh. Okay, anw, just in case viewers don't know, that was Cheryl last year @ Universal Studios, Japan. :D

She is:

> Number 3 of the JCAT family. (meaning 3rd youngest, or oldest)

> My best friend

> My since sec 1 till now same class friend

> My HYD spazz partner :D

> JCAT forum admin who always chases Jessa & I. HAHAHA.

> An AWESOME FRIEND.

> The one who gives hugs when others cry :D

> The one with THE SUPER LONG BIRTHDAY WISHLIST.

Hahahah, okay, for now, I shall stop here. Don't kill me for anything I've written/put up here (:

2008-08-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

Haiii people :D I'm back from haitus- for the moment at least. hurhur.
Will be going back on haitus soon cause' of FYE, but for the moment, I'll still be here.
Anw, I'm probably gonna blog quite a lot these few days cause' of the events that just passed. (:

Firstly;
16.08- @ Taka with Abigail & Che.
Went to Taka (as usual) with them two' :D hahaha. at korean rice cake (oishii!) at the fountain where this cute lil' girl came over and started "inspecting" Abigail's keychains. HAHAHA. It was so cute! Cause Abigail looked like the older sister for once :D (no offence there Abi!)
Yeap, went to Kino where I bought my BELOVED HYD photobook! (V) OMG. It's damn worth the money! SHUN OGURI> INSIDE!!! *screams*
Had a H-H with them at coffeebean, Wheelock Place. Awesome man~ And I agree with dear Abigail, SLEEPOVER NEEDED SOON!
And I had to leave all-too-soon cause' my mum sounded damn pissed over the phone for me missing my class. >_> wdv larh.

17.08; @ Plaza Singapura with my LOOONNNGG-time never meet up friends.
A.K.A Rachel Chin, Li Ying & Firdaus! (:
hahah, was pretty fun actually! I was kinda expecting it to be UBER awkward cause all of us haven't met up for a really long time, but it went better than expected :D we were all quite late due to the rain but ltr met up with them and we walked around a little. Saw a periodic table look alike "fancy paper" at this shop called "Made With Love". Was quite funny, cause my friends said that my expression was- priceless. =.= Yeahyeah I know Abigail.
After that, we went to the arcade to waste some time before the movie. I lost Puzzle Bobble to Firdaus! T_T Idiot guy. Didn even try to let me win that round. XD
hahah, but ah well, fun's the most important part!
At 345pm, we went to watch "Money No Enough". Was pretty funny until the last part which was so sad TTnTT
I think the director's a bit "..." tho, trying to make us laugh not even a minute after the sad part! ._.

____Moving on___

And school starts again tomorrow. *deep sigh*
Not looking forward to my CT results AT ALL. Cause I know I won't do well. T_T
The frustrating part is that I actually studied, like really studied this round! Unfair.
Oh yeah! And there's SPA Assesement this Wed (Phys) & Thurs (Chem) too.
Very afraid for that one. Concerns the O'lvls! *Horrified stare*

2008-07-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes we wait for something that isn't there.
Till reality comes crashing down and we're stunned speechless.
Causing our own hearbreaks and pain.
Listening to that endless mindless chatter."

Common tests in 2 wks. Man, it's gonna be long and tiring till then. :/
YES-NEC preliminary rounds + Speech day + Learning fest yesterday. Didn't even get into semi-finals.. *sacarsm* man we're gd. =.=
Went back to school after that for Learning fest. Was pretty good actually.. Hahaha, except that most people weren't actually 'learning' but more like enjoying em'selvs. Minus those on duty..
I&E Club stall managed to sell close to 200 cups of the special jelly drink :D Good work guys! hahaha. And CC did pretty well too :D
Their onigiri was OISHII. (: I think Cheryl's planning went rly well.

Ballet afterwards. I LOVE MY BALLET LESSONS! (V)
Continued learning the dance, balance (full) & Grande Allegro. (:

Will be on Hiatus from 27Jul onwards till end of CTs!

2008-07-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEAR! :D

Sorry for the late dedication girl! Was rly busy over my head the last 2 days with CCA competition stuff. :/

Anw, hahaha, wishing you a very fun & memorable 15th birthday! :D

Though I've only known you for 7mths, it's been awesome man~.

Finally someone along with Che and Abigail that understands that passion that we live

for.

Jiayou for your ice-skating yeah? Hahaha, don't worry, joining classical ballet will help you tons with your flexibility, coordination and strength for ice-skating! (:

Keep the fire burning

ILU (V)

______Today's post____

WHEW. Finally done with my competition ppt. Well, most of it anyways. Hurhur, did one rehearsel today- pretty ok. But I'm hoping it'll be equally ok for tomorrow's presentation in front of the CCA :/ I'm esp worried for my grp members. Aish.

Thanks to everyone today who was so concerned for me! ((: ILU all!

Especially to Che for running all the way down to get a bottle of hot water for me, and Abigail for nagging non-stop from when I woke up after chinese till end of geog :D

Hahahaha. And yesh, I will rest more Abigail mum. (V)

I really, really hope that the competition wld go well. And for at least one of our group (if BOTH then hahaha AWESOME) wld get into top 6/WIN.

Kampatte to Jigsaw Puzzle! : DDDDDD

Kinda disappointed that I'm missing Speech Day and Learning Fest! I'll bet Learning Fest is gonna be uber fun larh :/

Oy JCA-T, take more pics k! Then post on your blogs so that I can take :D

HAEHAEHAE. Feel better Jessa! Though I know that you'll never read this post >_>

K. End.

2008-07-21T05:38:00.000-07:00

JCAT < 3
three-gee-three-ohh-eight

Racial Harmony Day ~ 21st July 2008.

3G3 wins the Best Dressed Class award! Kudos to us! :D

Hahahah, but I think that this really took class effort! There were so many people frantic about the traditional costumes on Friday. But we managed to come through in the end! Some borrowed, some rented. Aaannddd, yesh! We have a colourful class of different traditional costumes! :B

It was quite fun today 'cause we kept taking photos. Hahahaha, no one was in the mood to have lessons. All zoning out or talking (: Ahhh well, all in spirit of the "season" : DDDD

Here's what JCAT wore:

J- Half Burmese

C- Happi + clogs

A- Our SIA girl

T- Punjabi

Cheryl and Jessa kept teasing Abigail about her figure today~ in a good way of course. But seriously abigail, you have a really nice figure, dun be so shy! :D

Hahahah, yeap. And more than 10 pple complimented Cheryl today about her outfit, which by the way, I think is really unique and nice too (:

Oy you cheryl, go update the pictures on your blog! I want the pictures!

National Day is coming up soon! LOL, we sure have loads of "holidays" this semester. After National Day would be the Sept holidays and then FINAL YEAR EXAMINATIONS looming above our heads.

2008-07-20T00:01:00.000-07:00

A quick update! :D

Just had 2 hrs of Science tuition and I'm gonna have to survive thru another 2 hrs of Maths tuition. >_>
And I have to chiong finish all my homework tonight cause block-headed me didn't bother to do any yesterday and I end up having a mountain of homework left today. -.-
FANTASTIC. I gotta learn to stop being so blur all the time or I might just end up like Jessa. *gasps*
The teachers were merciless last week. 6 tests can you imagine! o_o
English, Chinese, Social Studies, Geography, Emaths, Chem.

Next week we have Physics and Literature, which Mdm Kala "gladly" announced that it might be on Whale Rider. Ahhh shitz.

On the bright side- tomorrow's Racial Harmony Day so we might get to cut a few lessons :D
I'm hoping it's not the fun lessons though :x
K, end of boring update here.

2008-07-17T08:18:00.000-07:00

That forgotten love that came back and plauge my sleepless nights

Sometimes I forget how great my friends are.
Always there to lend me a helping hand ~ no matter where I am, no matter when I need their help;
They're always there.
Sometimes I forget how understanding my friends are.
Whenever I don't feel like talking, they don't press me- but their silent words of comfort settles right beside me.
Sometimes I forget how sensitive my friends are.
Right before I realize the teardrops on my cheeks, they'll already ask "what's wrong?"
Sometimes I forget the happiness I feel around my friends.
They always know how to make me laugh and cry.
Sometimes I forget that they're still my friends. And no matter how much I try to hide they'll always find me in that secret hiding place.
Because they always know where I am.

"A friendship is only as strong as the trust between the bond."

Yes, I know it's EXTREMELY cheesy & cliche and whatnot. But bear with it, because it's my heartfelt thanks to JCAT, 2g2'07 clique, 3G3'08 lovely friends & CEO OF I&E A.K.A Limin,.

2008-07-16T09:14:00.000-07:00

Four more tests to go this week and we're done~ FOR NOW.
Man, this week has been CRAZY. -.- And I was absent for one day somemore.. Just finished Chinese test and Geography test. Wth. Chinese was just killer and geography was just =.o
Hurhur. Tmr's Social Studies and English test, which is like ARGH!
Friday's the last of it for this wk ~ Chem and Emaths.
My life is getting so darn boring, I have absolutely nothing to update except these.

On the bright side, LisaYap is going to go for classical ballet trials! :D At CCK branch somemore!! OMG. I'm so excited for you Lisa! hahaha, we had fun today practicing in the Arts Con.
Yeap. AND OUR DEAREST JESSA FINALLY FINALLY REMEMBERED TO BRING THE BLACK BOOK YESTERDAY!!! YESH! :D
All those stuff I wanted to write inside ~ I CAN FINALLY DO THAT NOW!
Except I think that when I really get to write in it, I'll forget everything -.-

I can say that E-learning SUCKS LIKE HELL.
HOMEWORK WAS JUST KILLER. On top of that still got the YES-NEC competition & Literature debate.
We lost to Catholic High, but I don't really mind cause' the 3rd speaker was GOOD man. Hmm, Jessa and Abigail kept going on about how nice his voice was.. TSKTSK! :D
Hahahah, but we got MERCI chocolates from Mdm Kala and a yellow-tacky certificate for participating in the Literature festival. ._.

I'm glad that I'm finally focusing on my studies again. Finally gotton back that motivation to study! And the "block" to distraction. :D Finally was able to study for a few hours straight without thinking/doing other stuff. Heh, big improvement.
But downside is - I'm getting my moodiness back again. Which usually comes along with my "study mode". So don't mind me if I seem slightly "depressed" (as my mum described it) from now till FYE.
I definitely want this motivation till end of O'lvls though! It helps ALOT.

FOCUSFOCUSFOCUS! AJA AJA; HWAITING! :D

2008-07-15T08:48:00.001-07:00

I REALLY REALLY HATE SCHOOL RIGHT NOW.

Gone for so long
I waited in vain; the pain
Was unbearable yet I waited
Counting the number of days stolen

You never came back and though
You told me to move on
I stayed where I was
Always there

From then till now
I never lost hope
Never gave up
What I saw in you

Yet today my heart bled
From the words you showed
But never dared told me
Never once to me

Tears shed were lost
In the blizzard storm
Of forgotten pain and trust
Detrimental enlightement

2008-07-05T06:56:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling quite accomplished now :D Managed to finally execute the Grand plié 2 wks before and a Pas de chat today! We all miss dear Abigail, especially JESSA so ABIGAIL, hurry up and come back or I'll have to hear Jessa tell us 20times a day how much she misses you :D
Oh yeah! And my first official doodoll! NINJA (V). Whose star sign is also CAPRICORN. YAY XD
I wanted Numero but I think their out of stock. Right now settling some stuff before starting on HOMEWORK again. The teachers really think we're very free sia, one more day holiday only give us a MOUNTAIN of homework. =.= Chemistry test next tues! Better study TT_TT

2008-06-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

*Ramblings and rants. Stop reading here if you hate em. Don't ask me what's wrong or anything like that please, not if you want to see my crying. It's nothing a friend can solve.

Sometimes I really do wonder,
Why am I still doing this; trying time and again, time and again?
I don't know why I don't give up and just wish it all away, or close my eyes and forget the whole thing. Cause keeping it memory, be in willingly or unwillingly hurts badly.
Maybe it's just me that's unconsciously wanting to prove something out of the whole thing but why now? It'll never end and I already know it, it'll just remain there till the end comes. So why am I still trying?
Night after night I sit there and think if it's worth it at all. It's wearing me down, wearing me thin and I just can't take it.
I already knew the answer long ago I guess, in my heart or somewhere in my soul- I already saw what I needed to know, took what I didn't have, but it doesn seem to be enough.
In a circle I seem to run, but when would I slow down and stop to see that there's nothing ahead anymore?
Would it all come crashing down one day? And then maybe, I could run away and disappear?
But I already know I wouldn't run.
Because even till the end, I'll still fight and take the brunt of the fall.

I've always believed that seeing is believing. That logic made the most sense and magic gave the most hope, but in all the fairytales alike, would it really come back to the happy ending?
The heroine always does the right thing and corrects all the wrong, but in real life, would it ever end up like this?
A dramatic story of a girl struggling to stay afloat the storms of her past and present; a fairytale doesn't seem to suit the ending, now does it? It's not me, no. It's just an example- but I guess I've already proven my point then.

Keep on wishing and one day you'll just stop hoping. For all you know, the stars in the heavens above us could all just be a false impression.

2008-06-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

To a friend who's been feeling down. Don't feel that way anymore, cause you were never alone.

Sometimes when the world is falling
And you're shut out cold
Nothing seems to help;
Kindred words, sympathetic glances

No one understands your pain
The bitterness and anguish
Lonliness takes away our love,
Locks us into an ice-cold world

You see yourself now
Naive and too trusting to everyone
Keeping yourself away seemed to be
The best solution

Yet betrayal pushes us to the edge
Blinding us to the other side
Enclosing the walls of solitude
Pushing away gratitude and sincerity

We let what's precious slip away
Under the wings of our watch
Using that wound of past
Cutting away at others

But slow down there and
Look again, through the eyes
Of the others.
And give another chance

Cause we hate regretting
And looking back to mistakes
Now before it's too late
Take things into your own hands

Because being this way
Would forever shelve us aside
Into the thorniest bushes
And sharpest blades

2008-06-25T06:48:00.000-07:00

#Stolen#

3 names you go by
-Tracy
-Trace
-*______* (hahaha, secret!)

3 screen names you have had
-Silvermiststag
-Steps_of_light
-Snowflakeprinces (yes I know, stop laughing :D )

3 physical things you like about yourself
- Neckline
- Shoulder-blades
- Mouth

3 parts of your heritage
- Uhhm, no idea.

3 things that scare you
- Not being able to dance
- Heartbreak
- Ventriloquist dolls

3 of your everyday essentials
- My handphone
- A book
- My wallet

3 things you are wearing right now
- Black shorts
- Peach-coloured tshirt
- Knee-high socks

3 of your favourite bands or musical artists
- Backstreet Boys
- Jonas Brothers
- Jay Chou

3 of your favourite songs
- The Call; Regina Spektor
- When You Look Me In The Eyes; Jonas Brothers
- Potential Breakup Song; Aly & AJ

3 things you want in a relationship
- Love
- Trust
- Independence

2 truths and 1 lie (in no particular order)
- I love dancing.
- I'm believe in true love.
- I often brood about stuff.

3 physical things about the preferred sex that appeal to you
- Eyes
- Build
- Smile

3 of your favourite hobbies
- Dancing
- Reading
- Talking/Hanging out.

3 things you want to do badly right now
- Go out with my friends :x
- Have a sleepover!!
- MU!!!

3 careers you're considering / you've considered
- Theatre Arts
- Hostage Negotiator
- G.O @ resorts.

3 places you want to go on vacation
- Ireland; Ardmore
- Prince Edward Island; Charlottetown
- Austria; Innsbruck & Salzburg

3 names you like
- Giselle
- Jace
- Kayla

3 things you want to do before you die
- Travel around the world
- Be a dancer/dance tchr
- Go to an overseas university with my best friends

3 ways you are stereotyping a boy
- Egoistic
- Always putting up a strong front.
- Never taking anything serious.

3 ways you are stereotyping a girl
- Sensitive
- Jealous easily
- Petty (some)

3 celeb crushes
Shun Oguri x3
8D

3 people that I would like to see take this quiz
- Cheryl
- Jou Teng
- Limin

2008-06-24T08:03:00.001-07:00

2nd day of school and I already have people telling me that I sound stressed, tired and frustrated -.- Great man, maybe I'll turn crazy even before the 4mths are up.

Anw, there's lots to do in this Term. Argh, frustrating as it is to think of all these, it's even more frustrating to want to whine. -.- Getting darn sick of myself complaining half the time. Gonna have to try to stop it! :/
Anw, good thing is that wk after next is Youth Day and E-learning wk :D Meaning sometime to catch up on my studies from last Semester. This wk's ok so far; stressful but still pretty I guess? Haha, I'm guessing some others wld rate it as relaxing. HAHAHA.

I have some stuff to look forward to this wk too! :D
> Thurs CCA afterwards-spazz session with my dear CEO
> Friday tuition talk-time with dear Cheryl xD
> Saturday CCA meeting with Limin & digressing time :D
> Saturday BALLET LESSON!

Hahaha, all seems pretty normal but they normally cheer me up from a stressful wk of brooding and headaches. Oh yeah, for those of you who hasn't wrote to Jeannette yet, step on it! xD

"All for the sake of beauty"

2008-06-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

I've updated .bibimbap! xD

I'm so glad I went out with Liying on Thurs! Missed her so, so much. And her mum's a dear, baking me all those cookies :D
But sad thing is that she's turned PSG as well :x But despite this, I still love her cause she's my uberuber sweet friend :D
Watched Narnia for the 3rd time this month HAHAHA :D And it's still as nice as ever. Went shopping for a while before going home.
But had a great time talkingtalkingtalkin :D

Went out with my mum yesterday :D ahahah, shopping again.. Probably the last one for a very long time. And I've really gotta start running + studying again, cause well, i've been playing ALOT this holiday. hehheh.
And my mum -.- didn allow me to run till I've "fully recovered" from my flu, which is like this wk. (......)
Yeah so now i'll prob have problems running during mass run again since i haven't been running since like for the whole June holidays. Grr.
And I've realized that I shldn make any resolutions, but just go with what I think. Might not make sense to any of your who reads this, but haha :D

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday to Limin :D Wish you earlier first cause I scared I tues no time to update. Hope you like your present (:

2008-06-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY REGNA!! XD

Sorry for a late post.. was too tired yesterday to go on the computer..
Haha, anw, it was UBER fun to finally go out of the hse and spend time with y'all!! Didn realize how much I miss spending time with you guys man..
Firstly, we went to watch Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian..SECOND TIME for mee!! :D
hahahah, Edmund & Caspian are HOTT. haha, sound bimbotic? No way man, they rly are :D
Peter is cute too.. hehheh.
Anw, went to Seoul Garden to eat after that-OISHII!! :D
hahaha, was fun larh, maybe nxt time we can get even more pple to go. Oh yeah, gotta say thanks to che for treating me to macrons (spell?) :D
Finished up at kino and then went hm.. hahahha, deardear QN got lost -.- but managed to find her way after that :D hahaa, we all love Qian Ning! Cause she's so cute <3

Jeannette arh! You haven't replied my letter!!!!

Oh yeah! And I HIGHLY RECOMMEND everyone to read Vampire Academy & Frostbite.
They're a series and it's VERY GOOD. Really, I'm not kidding man.
ROSE + DIMITRI! :D His name sounds a lil' weird cause he's Russian, but :D
And Mason! OMG. hahah, I won't say if that "OMG" is gd or bad cause I want Che to go find out by herself. hahah :D

I'm dead man. Haven't done finished my hwrk yet and nxt wk is the last week of the school holidays alrd. :x Meaning-my mum's gonna kill me. Period. Gotta chiong alrd. Good luck to me >_> ( that is, if I ever get down to doing the hwrk)

Wonder where the whole damn holiday went to.. ?_?
So fast! Can't imagine it's already the end of the 3rd wk!? Heh, guess gd times just pass in a blink of an eye. ):
Wish my ballet results wld just come out alrd! I want my new leotard and I wanna add ribbons to my ballet shoes :x
ARGH! And most importantly, I NEED to see how badly/well/whatnot I did for the exam!

___________________Randomness today :D

2008-06-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

Tears of love in a deep acceptance
Whirpools of spiralling empitness
Fragile cracks descending upon
Hollow stance breaking away

Rememberance of yesterday
Pain in a glance of trust
Cold in the fire of passion
Burned in the frozen peace

Unafraid of death within
Boundaries broken by the sane
Gates of havan closing in
Flight inwards; sanctuary cut

Innocence kept; disappeared
The beginning of each chapters lonely
Endings crippling frenzied
Anger seeping through the cracks

Breathe the first pure waters
A false fantasy of truth
Retreating into the shell of courage
Running towards a well of fear

Message to island enemies
Withdrawal from victory
Defeat already upon that gold cup
Darkness roams free.

"Scars of frostbitten love"

2008-06-09T09:59:00.000-07:00

Getting over

Give me back that sacred past
Of so long ago; already forgotten
In time with an endless black hole
The star of forgiveness

I cried when the sun rose and set
When the moon was high up
And wished upon my last hope
That deep cut

But now I see the light
And know that my heart was never
Torn apart but instead given and;
Hidden in sight with my shadow

A long awakening in mine
I rose with the new moon
Just as the eclipse ends
I breathe again

New life, lost life
I can now see the foolishness
And terrible mistake in thinking
I wouldn't survive this final confession

Keep standing tall
And living life as you did
Because I remember
But lived.

And you heard but remained
I love that, yet hate that
No longer a friend
Goodbye my stranger.

2008-06-08T02:25:00.000-07:00

I'm still sick :x Guess that has to do with drinking that oh-so DELICIOUS ice-cold banana soymilk shake frm TCC yesterday :D
hahaha, but it's SO WORTH IT MAN. That tasted like heaven! So worth my money :D
Limin, we shld so totally go for a movie nxt wk :D

Welcome back Abigail :D hahah, can't wait to see you in your new contacts and specs!
Oh btw, STUDY DATE!!! AND CHE TOO! omg, we need to go out!
I'm so damn sian at hm. And when i'm alone, i think wayy too much :/
Something's puzzling me, and I need to figure it out soon man. Damn it.

So freaking pissed yesterday. AT SOMEONE. Man, that person is so dead the nxt time I see her. Not kidding either. And I'm not the only one pissed. Don't rly care if YOU read this post cause you know what, you just piss everyone off.
Seriously, stop and THINK for a minute! Cut the act cause everyone knows that you're faking it.
ARGH!

"It's not love if no one gets hurt at some point"

2008-06-07T07:46:00.000-07:00

Stolen from Mandy xD

1)Who are your loved ones?
Family. Friends. :D

2)What do you want the most now?
Time with my dearest friends. :x

3)Who is the person you trust the most?
Mum.

4)Do you think you have enough confidence?
Sometimes no.

5)Have you ever rejected a guy you love?
Go figure :D

6)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Yeap. Alrd answered that.

7)What is your goal for this year?
Don't go crazy.

8)10 things about you?
1. I love Shun Oguri, Jace & Zero :D
2. I love four-leaf clover pattern anythings :D
3. I LOVE BALLET & DANCEDANCEDANCE 8D
4. I'm not done with my holiday assignments.
5. I WANTWANTWANT MY STUDY DATES WITH BIBIMBAP AND CHE!
6. I miss OBS'2008 and Raleigh!
7. I wish that we were living in another Era.
8. SERIOUSLY ANNOYED AND DAMN PISSED AT SOMEONE CURRENTLY.
9. I'm listening to Snowflower :D
10.I want to watch Koizora again :D

9)What feeling you like most?
When I'm with my friends & family :D

10)What are your requirements that you wish from your other half?
IMPERFECTIONS.

11)What do you hate most?right now?
SOMEONE.

12)Do you cherish every single friendship?
Trying hard to, and i sincerely hope I do :D

13)Do you believe in God?
Yeah.

14)What food do you crave for now?
OMU RICE!

15)Who do you hope to be always there for you?
JCAT. 2G2'07 CLIQUE. MOTHER&DEARBROTHER. XD

16)Who is/are your best friend?
They should know.

17)Who cares for you the most?
Don't know actually.

18)Other than yourself, who do you trust most?
My family. My friends.

19)Who makes you smile when you're down?
People I care about xD

20) If God allow you to have a one & only wish, & it's going to be fulfilled,what will it be?
For everything to remain as it is. Because that's how it's meant to be.

2008-06-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

stolen from Mandy xD

1. At what age do you wish to marry?NOT GOING TO :D

2. Who is more important to you? [friends or boyfriends]
DUH. Friends lurh.

3. Who is the person you trust most?
Mum.

4. What music are you hooked on now?
Snowflower <3

5. Are you over with your ex-boyfriend?
Don't have one.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?
Yeap.

7. What is your goal for this year?
Don't go crazy :D

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
That depends.

9. Have you ever broken someone's heart until he/she commits suicide?
Doubt so.

10. What feeling do you like most?
GOING CRAZY OVER SHUN OGURI AND JACE! AND CURRENTLY ZERO TOO XD

11. What is your requirement for your other half?
Tall, artistic, cute :D

12. List out 5 best friends of yours.
Tsktsk, that's being biased! :D

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes.

14. What is the best word to describe you?
UNLAME (yes i know dear che and bibimbap)

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Love.

16. Do you love anime manga?
HMMM.

17. What have you done to please yourself?
GETTING OVER.

18. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?
Back to before time began.

Have you ever felt the true meaning of love?
Nope.

What if the Mayan calendar was wrong? Humans do not die by the date that the calendar had ended; instead they live on like 'em Jumis?
Then maybe I'll find a way to die?

Instructions:- Change a question- Tag 8 people from your list- Notify them in their tagboard that they had been tagged.

ANYONE IS WELCOME :D

2008-06-03T01:52:00.000-07:00

I feel much better now, emotionally. Like a huge baggage finally lifted off my shoulders. Thanks to JCAT for supporting me in that* :D love you guys!
Anw, I feel horribly sick now. Physically that is. Lost my voice and I have a hacking cough. Idiotic meds are making me sleep the whole day. I think I'll end up putting on a whole lot of weight by the time sch reopens >_>
LOL.

Anw, I have a ton of hwrk not done, all thanks to me falling sick now. On top of that, I missed the last day of the animation course :x
Well, half a day anw since I became too sick to stay on..
Animation was VERYVERY fun xD hahaha. Esp with Letty, Jou Teng, Rubing and Qian Ning! hahaha. The whole story is uber funny man. The twisted story of Little Gray Riding Hood.
HAHAHHA. Ask any of us if you're curious about the story xD

Now resting since I practically did almost all my emaths hwrk in on day.. I'm only left with the last part before I'm done with it! :D
YAY! byebye evil emaths. MUAHAHAH.
*ok, that was unlame, but im bored.

Looking forward to 11th June or before that to go out with 2g2 pple!! OMG. i miss you all!
AND because I wanna see our dear abigail in her new spectacles! :D
or even contact lens if she wld wear em' that day! :D
I think I wld, haha. FINALLY GOT MY CONTACTS YESTERDAY! XD
OH YEAH. and i got a new phone too- W910i. Red and a bit wide, but very light and cute. haha, im starting to like my phone.
Useful too. feels abit like a japanese phone anw. :D
hehheh.
I don't regret what I did. And I don't expect anything in return. Thank you for letting me down easy. Because now I can finally move on to the road of goodbye and not look back anymore.

2008-05-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

I guess I shld just give up then.
There isn't any point in holding on to the past anymore.
And it pains me, kills me literally to try to catch hold onto sth that is slipping away.
You don't remember, then I don't think I shld either.
Because maybe if I forget, I can start over; just like you did.
I waited for you at the crossroad, hoping to start anew.
But you just went on without me.
I couldn't see for so long, because what I felt then misted my vision.
But now I see, and I know.. It hurts to let go, but it hurts even more to hold on, and hope each day that somehow, someway, it might just turn out differently.
Hoping for a miracle seems so much easier now.

But goodbye is the most difficult word that I've ever tried to say to you.

2008-05-18T07:56:00.000-07:00

Firstly...

CONGRATULATIONS to Jessa for getting 3rd for Crezawards!!
Your 2 managers and 1 assistant manager are so proud of you! :D
*Muacks* you were AWESOME thruout! Especially the "tonight" part! hahaha.
And you had a ton of supporters don't forget! OMG. we had a blast that night! :DDD let's do that again sometime soon!! ((:
hehheh..

OK next;

Just came back from OBS 2008' @ Pulua Ubin. It was definitely an unforgettable experience. I didn't wanna leave actl, but aish, sad. Still had to :x
I belong to Team RALEIGH!

Raleigh;
Leader/instructor: Kiah Hong
Team mates: Lydia, Kana, Shermin, Annabelle, Amanda, Clarissa, Wen Lin, Brenda, Kai Min, Yuan Yi, Yu Xin, Nicole, Wanmin, Jacqueline.

I won't update on the WHOLE experience.. but I'll just say that it's one adventure I'll never forget. It's taught me so much..
TOLERANCE. ENDURANCE. PATIENCE. WILLPOWER. DETERMINATION. TEAMWORK. FRIENDSHIP. FORWARD THINKING. OPEN-MINDEDNESS.
These are only SOME of what I took back frm OBS. And it's my experience to keep.

Straight after OBS had my brother's party.. LOL, his friends are so nice! They 'collaborated' with my mum and threw him a surprise party :D I helped.. haha. abit.
There was this treasure hunt that was uber funny! Must get the video frm my brother's phone (I videoed the whole thing using his hp)
But I got knocked out halfway thru cause exhaustion kicked in. haha..
Hibernated for 15hrs before I had to prepare for ANOTHER damn party.

This time it's for my grandfather (paternal).. So tiring.. somemore they were 1 and a half hr late and didn inform us -.-
Idiot larh, didn even tell us..
Yeah, so I survived thru that one till 1am, haha. talking to dear abigail. and debating abt losing weight! hahaha :D

Shall stop here, too tired to continue..

"This was my stepping stone to the next greatest adventure"

2008-05-07T07:39:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM.

I'm sure every one of us understands that word now.
It means = NO MORE EXAMS AND NO HOMEWORK FOR 3WKS! XD
Say Yay! :D
hahahha.

Man. It's great being able to do anth you want once again! And not having to worry about STUDYING or HOMEWORK T_T
But LOL, the funny thing is that although it alrd hit me that the exams are over, i'm still constantly thinking "Oh no, I shouldn't be doing this, gotta rush homework" or "Study! stop procrastinating".. haha.
Weird isn't it?
BUT.. XD HAHAHHA. THE EXAMS ARE OVER!!
I can't stop saying that.. haha.. ((:

Anw, went to Jessa's house today to help her with her singing and clothing.. LOL, and Che managed to put together a nice and simple outfit for her.. xD
I love her skirt! It's white with cute lil' black ribbons all over. I want something like that!
After Che, Reg and JT left, Jessa played the piano and we just kinda talked and stuff :D
Total bonding time. HAHAHA I LOVE IT!
And then Chu can over to my house to eat dinner and bathe. AND HAHA, TALK!! OMGOSH.
I WANT THE SLEEPOVER NOW!!!

Crezawards just 2 days away! Jiayou Jessa! :D We know you can do it!
Learning Journey tmr! IT'S LIKE NOTHING TO DO AT ALL HAHA. JUST TALKTALKTALK! :D
And haha, since Jou Teng told me to surprise your with an outfit today..
I'm decided that I'm gonna :D
Not telling tho.. haha, your will see on that day.
And Abigail-SHHHHHH!!

Can't wait for ballet this Saturday! haha. and Congrats again to LisaYap for nailing the spin! :D
Kampatte!

"I love this feeling."

2008-05-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

Went to Che's house today to study :D
haha, we shld do that again soon! <>
Anw, tmr's Physics mid-yrs.. Good luck everyone!
6 papers down, 3 more to go :D
And I'm in such a good mood because:

>I'm almost done studying for Chem
>I just had an uber fun tuition with my maths teacher
>I'm listening to an AWESOME song
>I get to wake up later tmr cause PHYSICS starts at...10.00am.

Haha, yeah I know, not much to be happy about, but hey, the simple things in life brings a smile to our faces.. no? :D
HAHAHA.

Gonna have combined tuition with Che & Abigail tmr.
OBS is next wk.
Crezawards is this Friday. -good luck Jessa.
Mother's Day is this Sunday.

_________________Random today.

"Tell the world that I can fly"

2008-05-03T00:24:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm officially screwed.
Hopefully I'll promote to next year. -.-
Just finished SS and Lit Mid yrs yesterday and ya noe what? I feel like killing myself. >_>
I could have finish the bloody SS SBQ question had I not spend so much time on the idiotic Inference and C&C question!!!
Now I've lost 14 marks on Reliability and Usefulness. WONDERFUL. JUST WONDERFUL.
AISH.
And somemore I did horribly for Geog and Amaths.

Now I'm starting to wish that I had studied more before Mid-yrs. D:
Well, the only thing that I can do right now is to study hard for CA2 and SA2 I guess..
AJA AJA, HWAITING!

ok, I'm done with the rant.

Right now hoping desperately for Emaths, Phys and Chem to end quickly so that LJ and Crezawards can come! :D
YAY!
And then... OBS! XD
YIPPPESSS!
Hopefully I won't cry or anything when we get our Mid Year papers back..-.- though I know that quite a number of people will be crying if they didn't do well..
heh.

Nothing much to update now since my life is boriinngg.

2008-04-23T07:38:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS to Jessa for passing the auditions! Right now, JCAT is worried abt her wardrobe for this Friday's recording.. LOL. But anw, it's the singing that counts right? :D
I'm supposed to be on Haitus right now since it's 2 days to the official start of the Mid Years examinations, but I really cldn care less.. Not that I don't care about my studies, I do actl. More like, I don't wanna go on Haitus just cause of the exams. No point really, blogging will just be a break for me :D
hahahhaa. Yep, and I just organised my file and found ALOT of my notes, so THANK GOD for that! Now i can actually study instead of making notes all the time. >_>
Hope I can actually pass my mid years! Not sure abt Physics, Amaths & English tho.. :x
For the last tests, I only just passed my Physics and failed my Amaths test horribly. TT_TT
and OH GOD. the homework load is like Mt. Everest now. How are we supposed to study?!!
GRR.

Only good thing abt today was that Abigail, Jessa and I practiced lyrical jazz for abt an hr in Arts Con and classrm! :D
Relaxing! And I miss lyrical jazz so much again. LET'S GO LEARN MANDY, JESSA AND ABIGAIL!!! :DDDD

2008-04-21T06:00:00.000-07:00

Wanted to wish Jessa good luck yesterday on my blog but my brother went and turn off the internet >_> so yeah.
But anw! Jessa's audition went great! I'm relieved :D I have absolute confidence in you Jessa! AJA AJA! HWAITING! xD
hahahaha.

Well, it's way better than my ballet exam anw. I was so damn nervous throughout that I cldn't rly keep my smile right, so after every exercise, my smile looks a tad fake. LOL. but nvm, hopefully i'll get abit of marks for the smile :D
But yeah, made some stupid mistakes. The simplest of exercise and i screwed it up. wth larh. im kinda pissed with myself for making the mistakes actl.
But my ballet teacher was so sweet! i told her of my mistakes and she went "Aiya, nvm larh. only abit only. Not major mistakes can liao" and then gave me and my partner a packet of Oreos each for encouragement and congratulations for finishing the exams!
I love my ballet teacher! (V)

Now I'm hoping for the best-like at least for a pass..
Thanks to 3G3 and everyone else for you support and encouragement!! It made me smile when I was nervous during the exam. I love you guys! (V)

Ohh and I saw the grade 7 girls marking through their barre work, centre work and dance. AND OMG. IT IS SERIOUSLY GOOD. But uber difficult. And omg! I wonder when I wld ever reach that kinda lvl!
This Saturday's lesson is gonna be fun xD all relaxing alrd! hahahha.

Anticipating the crezawards results now! :D Kampatte to JESSA, Lisa Yap, Lisa Tan(for playing the piano for her friend), Felicia and Sarah C. !

"失败是成功之母"

2008-04-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

Omg. I know I've been ranting about this alot lately, but im REALLY really nervous bout't Monday!
Which happens to be 21.04.08. The day that important events happen.
+Crezawards audition day: Kampatte Jessa!!
+Ballet exam day: OMG!! TTnTT

I feel so bad about not being able to support Jessa on her audition day! I'm so sorry Jessa! And omg, somemore her auditions starts at the same time as my ballet exam!
3.30pm!
Gosh. Hope I don't screw up that day! Gotta pray the day before man, even tho I'm a free-thinker. LOL.
Hurhur. And 2 wks to the mid yrs! OMO. and nxt friday's the English paper alrd!
加油 everyone! xD We can do it!!!
And I'm in love with 2 new songs:
+Dreaming of You by Selena
+ Love, Me by Collin Raye.

2008-04-12T06:38:00.000-07:00

It's been a crazy wk. 6 tests in one week!! OMG. how can they expect us to do well in every single one? -.-
And I still don't quite get the point of having so many tests and not doing well..

Tests of the week

1. Physics -I think I screwed up some questions, probably the last question that I took so darn long to draw. :(
2. Chinese-was quite ok. I did ok at least, but ARGH! so many careless mistakes in the 理解问答! But anyway, it's over so yeah, just do better next time.
3. Elective geography- MAN IT IS SO DAMN SCREWED! I have no idea how to answer the question on Coastal Management!! :x
4. Literature-Screwed. I wrote alot for the first 3 pts but darn little for the rest, which in the end equals to NO QUALITY and horrible work.
5. Emaths-It's was surprisingly ok since I didn't really revise o_O But still, I never know what sorta idiotic careless mistakes that I'll make.
6. Chemistry-Frustrating wld be the word to describe it. >_> stupid Methyl Orange question. and OMG THE LAST QUESTION!!! :(

ALL IN ALL. I have a feeling I'm so not gonna do well. Aish! And we still have another Amaths test next wk! -.- it's gonna be never ending I tell ya. And omo, I haven't even started revising for Mid-yrs!

Went for Flag Day today. xD haha, it was uber fun! we actually just slack around and went round the whole shopping centre. HAHAHAHA. I did Flag Day with Che, Chu and QN ((:
I love the HOKKAIDO ICE CREAM!! <3 CHERYL! LET'S GO EAT IT AGAIN OKOK!! :DDD
haha, and the curry udon was AWESOME!
Bought this cute lil' "Heroes" doll. Mine's black and white striped. :D
Che, Chu and Jessa each has one too. haha!
OHH. we also went to take this I.D photo at the MRT station! haha, the funny part is that it's meant for one-two people to take only, but the three of us-che, chu and me (QN went back alrd) squeezed in to take the photo! haha, we look darn spastic but OMG, i wanna go take again! Jessa! u better come this time k!!

haha, yeap. that's about it for today. too lazy to post anymore.

2008-04-09T17:45:00.000-07:00

一二三四五!

5 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF:
▸ There's music playing in my head all the time-especially when I'm bored.
▸ I like classical music.
▸ I LOVELOVELOVE HYD!! :D
▸ I love anything to do with four-leaf clovers!
▸ I cannot forget things easily.

5 NICKNAMES YOU HAVE:
▸ Trace.
▸ Crazy.
▸ -----
▸ -----
▸ -----

5 FAVOURITE COLORS:
▸ Sea/seafoam/forest green
▸ Red
▸ White
▸ Aqua
▸ Black

5 FAVOURITE DESIGNS:
▸ Rennesaince
▸ Striped.
▸ Four-leaf clover theme
▸ Graffiti.
▸ Vintage

5 FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
▸ DANCING! XD
▸ Reading.
▸ Writing poems.
▸ Chatting with my friends 8D
▸ Having deep thoughts about certain matters.

5 TYPES OF PEOPLE YOU LIKE:
▸ Understanding.
▸ Genuine.
▸ Polite & courteous.
▸ Friendly
▸ Honest & sincere.

5 TYPES OF PEOPLE YOU DISLIKE:
▸ Conceited.
▸ Arrogant/Egoistic.
▸ Discourteous
▸ Discriminating.
▸ Petty.

5 WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
▸ Going to the "Dear Abby" column xD
▸ Sleepovers & lOOOONG chat sessions.
▸ talktalktalk
▸ Dancing everyday.
▸ HAVING FREEDOM.

5 GIFTS YOU WANT:
▸ An ipod! d:
▸ An imac!
▸ A new sling/tote bag.
▸ Ballet stuffs!
▸ A song.

5 WISHES YOU WANT TO COME TRUE:
▸ Going abroad to study !!!
▸ Entering an Arts School.
▸ Growing taller!
▸ Cancelling all tests & exams
▸ Going on a holiday with my friends!

5 SPECIAL DATES:
▸ 12.01
▸ 25.12
▸ 08.08
▸ 16.05
▸ 15.05

5 PLACES YOU WANT TO GO:
▸ Ireland
▸ Canada
▸ Italy
▸ Outer space!
▸ Iceland

5 THINGS YOU JUST FEAR:
▸ Losing things/people I love.
▸ Falling down.
▸ Forced into oblivion
▸ Breaking under pressure.
▸ Losing myself.

5 THINGS YOU JUST LOVE:
▸ FAMILY.
▸ FRIENDS.
▸ DANCE.
▸ MUSIC.
▸ ART.

5 FAVOURITE QUOTES:
▸ "Truly understanding love is finally loving love itself"
▸ "Lose that conscious state and just fade away into nothingness"
▸ "Music is not notes of silence, it's the silence of notes"
▸ "Dancing is felt by the heart, not by the mind"
▸ "Music is a universal language"

5 THINGS TO DO:
▸ Study for Mid Years.
▸ Have another sleepover in June.
▸ Be prepared for my ballet exam.
▸ Don't get a breakdown this year.
▸ Sleeping before 11pm.

5 ITEMS NORMALLY FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
▸ Wallet.
▸ Ipod.
▸ Handphone.
▸ A book.
▸ Water bottle.

5 THINGS YOU CANNOT DO WITHOUT:
▸ My wallet
▸ My book
▸ Midnight snacking!
▸ Laughing
▸ Music.

5 PHYSICAL TRAITS YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY:
▸ EYES.
▸ HAIR
▸ HEIGHT.
▸ BUILD.
▸ EYEBROWS. (weird, I know)

5 CHARACTER TRAITS YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY:
▸ Sincerity.
▸ Compassion.
▸ A wild streak (slight)
▸ Deep.
▸ Bold.

5 FAVOURITE GIRL NAMES:
▸ Ellena
▸ Annaelyna
▸ Melody.
▸ Josephine.
▸ Kidashiphine.

5 FAVOURITE BOY NAMES:
▸ Jason.
▸ Shawn.
▸ Shane.
▸ Nicholas.
▸ Keevan.

5 MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS:
▸ Piano!
▸ Acoustic guitar.
▸ Violin.
▸ Flute.
▸ Zither.

5 FAVOURITE ANIMALS:
▸ Stag.
▸ Dolphin.
▸ White tiger.
▸ Eagle.
▸ Snow owl.

5 FAVOURITE FOOD:
▸ Italian.
▸ Japanese.
▸ Spicy foods!
▸ CHEESE CAKE!
▸ CHOCOLATE ECLAIR!

5 FAVOURTE DRINKS:
▸ Lemon barley.
▸ Plain water.
▸ Green tea.
▸ Iced Milo.
▸ Bubble tea.

5 TOP SONGS:
▸ Planetarium.
▸ Black Glasses.
▸ A Thousand Miles.
▸ Ultimate.
▸ At the Beginning.

5 TOP MUSIC GROUPS / BANDS:
▸ Backstreeet Boys.
▸ Westlife.
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5 TOP SINGERS:
▸ Eru.
▸ Hannah Montana.
▸ Corrine May.
▸ Jesse McCartney
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5 TOP DRAMA SERIALS:
▸ HANA YORI DANGO! :DDD
▸ Sassy Girl; Chun Hyang
▸ My Girl
▸ Goong.
▸ MISA.

5 TOP MOVIES:
▸ SKY OF LOVE!
▸ Step Up 2!
▸ She's All That.
▸ 10 Things I Hate About You.
▸ Ratatouille (Spelling error sry)

5 TOP ACTRESSES:
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5 TOP ACTORS:
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5 FAVOURITE BOOKS:
▸ Glass house series
▸ Twilight series
▸ City Of Bones
▸ My Sister's Keeper
▸ River's End.

5 FAVOURITE MAGAZINES:
▸ W.I.T.C.H
▸ Seventeen
▸ 8 Days.
▸ Teen Vogue.
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5 FAVOURITE ANIMATED MOVIES:
▸ Shrek!
▸ Finding Nemo.
▸ Cinderella.
▸ Mulan 1 & 2.
▸ Phocahantas

5 FAVOURITE ANIMATED MOVIE CHARACTERS:
▸ Donkey!!-Shrek
▸ Dory.-Finding Nemo
▸ Chip! -Beauty & The Beast
▸ Mushu!- Mulan
▸ Boo! -Monsters Inc.

5 FAVOURITE CARTOONS:
▸ Kim Possible
▸ Courage, The Cowardly Dog
▸ Avatar: The Legend Of Aang
▸ Martin Mystery.
▸ As Told By Ginger.

5 FAVOURITE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
▸ Kim!-Kim Possible
▸ Courage-Courage, The Cowardly Dog
▸ Java the caveman-Martin Mystery
▸ Diana-Martin Mystery
▸ Ginger-As Told By Ginger

5 FAVOURITE COMIC STRIPS:
▸ Archie Comics
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CREDITS TO, BIBIMBAP♪

2008-04-09T17:39:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING LINK 25! XD

JESSICA:

Jonas Brothers, One-three-hill, James Lafferty, Sun, Snoopy, Gerald, Japan, piano, Aquarius, olive-color, mass run partner, Keller, netball, “我真得不行啦”, Burmese, Alston, Edlyn&JiaXuan, eats very slowly, loses stuff easily xD , excellent voice, January, Kanamae, “I’m hungry…”, maroon-colored file, JCAT.

CHERYL:

Film directing, artistic, Goth, skull designs, black, Martin Mystery, Entomophobia, Alice in Wonderland, Brian, F.T.T.S, HYD, Doodolls, Industrial music, Leo, August, short term memory (STM), drums, Planetarium, winter, drawing, Manga, eyeliner, tiny handwriting, JCAT

ABIGAIL:

Photography, dance, lyrical, sketching, acoustic guitar, artistic, ocean, water, Sagittarius, December, super neat & organized, Pattaya, PHD in stalking, Nici, long skirts, egg-joke, mass run partner, F.T. Island, “Dear Abby column”, Stitch, Disney, snow-globes, white, teddy bear collection, JCAT

TRACY:

Dancing, poetry, loves The Arts, chocolate, reading, high-school romance novels, Nora Roberts, ballet, Sea-foam green, Esprit, flats, I&E, spicy food, UNlame, sunset, Disney, musicals, electronic device jinx, Capricorn, January, ballads, Autumn, HYD, Fanfiction, JCAT

2008-04-02T08:58:00.001-07:00

RANT.

The educational system will never change . we'll just have to fight our way to the surface of the water.
I guess it'll become easier in time to come, but right now, I can't take it.
All that pressure and stress. It's no wonder Singapore has so many sucidal cases.
Seriously, who wouldn't break? Every has their limits, and this is stretching it to breaking point.
I once found joy in doing homework and studying for tests. I loved going to school and learning new things. But now the only things keeping me going are my friends, family & ballet.
Nothing else.
Everyday we're faced with the same thing as the day before and it'll never end.
Right now I don't even understand why we're studying so hard.
Is it because we don't have enough time? Or is it because of our society's obsession of perfection? A perfect mold of children all across the country being brilliant and studying one year ahead of other countries?

Maybe it all started with fear. Fear of what would come. Fear of what would happen.
Fear was what brought us to the place we are in today.

"That which is the most perfect has the most imperfections"

2008-04-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

Making the right decisions sometimes require sacrifices.
Some of which, we're very reluctant to do so.
But most of which, unwittingly, we've already done so.
Yet that small amount still remains where we want to do the right thing, yet are afraid of disappointing a loved one.
So in the end, we're back at Square 1.
Spinning the thread of indecision. Planting the seed of doubt.
Fading fast into the borders of our minds.

2008-03-29T23:52:00.001-07:00

*Don't bother reading this. I posted this for myself only. If you hate rants, then close this window and go to another site or wdv. If you wanna read this, then shut the hell up and don't comment on it. Don't bother guessing who it is, cause you won't be able to. If you think it's you, then I can't help it, cause it's just too bad if you wanna think it's you.

I'm seriously TOO DAMN PISSED OFF TO CARE.

I can't stand it. I really HATE hypocritcal people.
LIKE WHATEVER.
You say one thing, and do another. And you expect people to sympathise with you?
DREAM ON.

Yeah sure, you say all sorts of things to make people feel like they owe you, to be guilty and whatever shit. But seriously, reflect on YOURSELF and for once, think. You say this person did this and that person did that, but did YOU do what you're telling others not to do?
Are you any better when you do what you told others NOT to do it?
Everytime someone does something wrong, you say this and that about that person, but in the end YOU are the one who does it the most and HURT THE MOST PEOPLE.
You claim this and that, but do you realize why NOBODY wants to credit you for anything that you've done? it's because YOU don't f***ing bother and yeah sure, you try, but the thing is, you make things 10 times worst.
Instead of patching things up, you are BREAKING and TEARING it up.
And yet you claim that you are upset and wdv over it.
Just shut up for once. No one believes in your acting anymore.
Cause it's just crap. No one cares that you say this anymore, because it isn't true.
And every single time something in your life goes wrong, you just sit down and don't do anything about it, hoping that someone else will clear the shit for you.
WAKE UP. because everyone has PROBLEMS. not only you.
So just shut it alright?
And the "funniest" part is, you make everything minor seem like something HUGE. and act like the whole damn world owes you.
HAH. try delving into other's problems and you'll realize your problem ain't as big as you make it to be.

I hate people like that. It pisses me off to no end.

2008-03-28T06:49:00.000-07:00

I can't see where I'm going. I'm lost. Will someone help me?

I don't know where my sense of direction is anymore. And I don't mean that I've lost my senses or dreams or whatever. It's just, right now, I see a crossroad right in front of me, but I don't know which path to take.
Into where my dreams lie? Or the place which I've been told time and again belongs to me?
I can't find myself. I seem to be lost in this black abyss and there is only a faint flicker of light in the horizon. Everywhere I turn I'm surrounded by people I love, but each one of them is saying something different to me. I try shouting out but my voice is muffled. I try to see, but my vision is hazed. I try to feel but I cannot catch anything.
I try listening to my own heart but it's telling me a thousand different things.

+When there are two conflicting decisions, which would you choose? The one that you know is right, or the one that you feel is right?
+When someone you know has changed, what would you do? What if that person has changed for the worst, but you don't want to loose this friend, so you keep silent when a volcano's already threatening to explode from inside of you?
+What if a friend is desperately and silently calling out to you for help, but no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to find the solution to find them?

+What if everyone else is pressurizing you to do something and at first u know you don't want to either, but all of a sudden that decision doesn't seem that firm anymore? But you're friend is counting on you to support that decision along with hers?
+What if those you respected and loved expect 100% from you when you feel like you can only give 99%?
+What if because of a lie, a relationship that was once strong starts showing signs of cracks?

+What if you felt an unwanted jealousy or rivalry against someone you hold dear to your heart?
+What if there was this deep black hatred that exist right at the core of your heart cannot seem to disappear? And this person that you hate was once someone you loved so dearly?

+What if you tried reaching out to a friend, yet to only receive cuts and bites time and again?
+What if you just wanted to close your eyes and shut the world out for a while, but duty tells you not to? Is your heart or head right?

I don't know what to do anymore.

2008-03-24T08:00:00.000-07:00

CHOOSE FOUR PEOPLE:
1. Che
2. Abigail
3. Jessa
4. Limin

WHO IS BLOOD RELATED TO YOU?
[ ] 1
[ ] 2
[ ] 3
[ ] 4
[X] None

WHO'S HOUSE HAVE YOU BEEN TO?
[X] 1
[X] 2
[ ] 3
[ ] 4
[ ] None

Who have you known the longest? Limin & Che.
Who have you known the shortest? Jessa.

- NUMBER ONE -
1. When is the last time you talked tohim / her?+ About 10 minutes ago. LOL XD

2. Would you do anything for him / her?+ Probably. :D

3. Do you talk to him / her every day?+ YEAP.

4. How long have you known each other?+ 2+ years.

- NUMBER TWO -
1. Is this person taller than you? + I think she's about the same height as me :D

2. Do you trust him / her with anything? + DEFINITELY!

3. Do you know his/her parents? + Um, sort of?

4. Do you talk everyday? + Yeap!

- NUMBER THREE -
1. How did you meet this person?+ During the Japan foreign exchange programme last year. :D

2. Where does this person live?+ At Havelock Rd. I think.

3. Do you know his / her last name?+ Yeap :D

4. When was the last time you talked to him / her?+ A few hours ago.

5. Do you enjoy spending time with him / her?+ Yeap :D

6. Do you talk to him / her everyday?+ Yesh!

- NUMBER 4 -
1. When was the last time you saw this person?+ This morning.

2. Do you know his / her parents?+ Nope.

3. Do he / she live close to you?+ Not quite.

4. How long have you known each other?+ 2+ years!

5. Do you talk to this person everyday?+ Haha, alternate days :D

2008-03-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

+ What does your mother call you?: Tracy/ Meimei (>_>)

+ How about your friends?: Tracy/Trace

+ What day do you celebrate your birth?: 12JAN! :D

+ Where were you born: SINGAPORE

+ Where were you raised?: WEST of Singapore :D

+ Do you still live there?: YESH! But I'm hoping to go abroad to study soon xD

+ Precisely, where are you right now?: In my study room

+ Is that normal for you?: Perfectly

+ What heritage are your parents?: Hmm, I'm not quite sure. LOL.

+ Got any piercings?: Yeap. 1 each on my ears

+ What are you wearing right now?: T-shirt and shorts

+ Hair style at the moment?: Short fringe and shoulder-length hair

+ Is this normal for you?: Not exactly. I usually have long fringe and hair.

+ Best group of all time: Hmm, no preference.

+ Favorite song at the moment?: PLANETARIUM!! <3>

+ Favorite food?: EVERYTHING! I love eating :D

+ Favorite place to eat?: In a cosy restaurant! Like Mai Mason at The Central! :D

+ Can you cook?: Yeap! Love cooking. harhar.

+ Favorite alcoholic drink?: Don't really like alcoholic drinks.

+ What about non-alcoholic?: lemon barley/green tea/plain water

+ Best time of day?: Sunset.

+ Best day of the week?: FRIDAY XD

+ Season?: Autumn.

+ Holiday?: Christmas.

+ Kind of pet?: Puppy xD

+ Book?: ALL KINDS!

+ Favorite person?: HAHAHA. shadn't say :D

+ Favorite kind of pizza?: Hawaiian (sry for spelling error)

+ Favorite ex?: NO EX. LARH.

+ Favorite teacher?: MY BALLET TEACHER-MS KOK SHI HUI!

+ Favorite instrument?: Piano.

So Today,+ When did you wake up?: At 6.15am in the MORNING. T_T

+ What was your first thought?: "Let me go back to sleep"

+ What was the first thing you did?: Turn over to the other side and pretend I'm still asleep.

+ Did you go anywhere?: TO SCHOOL. >_>

+ Did you have a nice day?: Not exactly. Very restless today :x

+ Did you learn anything today?: AMATHS. >_>

+ What shoes did you wear?: my usual Nike sports shoes.

+ Did you see your parents?: Yeap.

+ Where are your parents?: One's upstairs in her room, the other's downstairs watching tv.

+ Did you go to work?: NO. >_>

+ How about school?: YESH. already said that.

+ Did you miss anyone today?: Yeah :x

+ So did you call them, then?: NOPE.

The Opposite Sex:+

What's a surefire way to catch your attention?:
I'm not sure exactly how guys usually catch my attention. They just do I guess? hurhur.

+ What's a deal breaker?:
Being EGOISTIC/ARROGANT/IDIOTIC and having AIR in his brain only >_>

+ Favorite eye color?: Green/Gray :DDD

+ How about hair color?: Hm, no preference. :D

+ Ideal height / weight ratio?: 182cm, 65kg.

+ Would you consider yourself a good girlfriend?: Uh, doubt so. Wldn know anyways.

+ Why would you think that?: Because I've never dated? >_>

+ Have you ever been in love?: Don't know.

+ Was this reciprocated?: *Silence*

+ If your significant other had totally poor tastes in music, could you deal?: Why not?

+ Would you go back in time and change something you did?: DEFINITELY.

+ Your weakness: Being too soft-hearted sometimes I THINK.?

+ Your best physical feature: ABBY says it's my.. teeth? LOL.

+ Do you think you are attractive?: HELL NO. quite the opposite in fact.

+ Any special talents?: Dunnoe?

+ Ever got into a fight?: Um, not exactly.

+ Are you multi-tasking right now?: Yeap.

+ Any regrets?: Some.

+ What country must you visit before you die?: IRELAND!

+ What are some pet peeves of yours?: HUH?.

+ Plan on getting married, having kids and a white picket fence?: NO NO AND NOOOOOO!

+ Got any pets?: nope.

+ Honestly, pick one - Love or Money?: LOVE.

+ Whats your ideal sleeping situation?: Sleeping before midnight?

+ Describe a perfect date:
In short- a date where there are lortsa pleasant surprises which are in a way romantic, yet alsofun and can "sweep me off my feet" :D (cliche? i noe. but haha! i can't help it man)

+ What's one goal you must acheive before you die?: Making a difference in this world in one way
or another.

+ Your 3 best friends: HAHA GUESS WHO? XD Their names start with J, C and A.

+ Any enemies?: Not at the moment.

+ Three thoughts at the moment?:
1. Still thinking of...
2. How to study for Mid-yrs
3. Still trying to figure out some of my dreams.

2008-03-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

6 years later it still remained.
That bittersweet feeling.
Yet when trying to let it go,
All I felt was the sweetness.

2008-03-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

There's nothing much to update these days. Tomorrow's the official last school day for this week :D
Thurs' sports carnival and Friday's Good Friday so... no school XD
But after that gotta start studying for Mid-yrs :x

Suddenly, I'm thinking about which JC shld I aim for. I'm actually starting to wonder about the ACS (I) I.B programme now. Because I don't know, it just sounds interesting :D
At least it's a totally different system from Singapore's.
But yeah, it should be pretty difficult to get in since almost everyone in Singapore is interested in the programme.
I guess I'm thinking too much again?
LOL.

But I'm determined to get out of S'pore when I get into University! Canada's my current aim :D
My mum told me how beautiful it is there. And i bet it is!!
But my path's unclear again. Haish. Life has so much stuff to worry about. Sometimes I feel that we shldn't even think anymore :x

Ok, I'm randoming, I know. But yeah, like I said, nothing much to update about.

But OMG. I so want to go ice-skating!

HYD & SKY OF LOVE IS THE <3>

2008-03-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

Holidays almost officially over. Kinda glad actually. What with all that bloody hwrk that we're given. and remedials for half a day for 2 days! -.- might as well jump to hell right?
Almost finished with hwrk. Now doing amaths, so left with only Literature: reading a bk by a local author. :D
and step up 2 is the <3!!!!!>
and omgosh! SKY OF LOVE!! <3
MAN! THAT SHOW SO DARN ROCKS TOO! HIRO! :D

hahaha! i shall buy the disc! :D AND HYD! XD
LOL.

ok, now i gotta go do my hwrk. shall post a longer post nxt time :D

I'd promised myself last year that I wouldn ever think of it ever again..
That it would be gone;
but it still returned in the end.
i know i have to stop running. but what else can i do?
stopping will only cut me again.
thinking will only hurt me again.
what will it take to numb myself from this?
man, am i being emotional or what. i really hate myself now. hurting over something that never existed in the first place.

2008-03-13T07:42:00.001-07:00

2nd last day of this so-called March school holiday.. almost done with my homework. :D
and the 2 剪报 was not quite as bad as i thought it wld be :D haha.
anw, tmr going out with Che, Abigail, Reg and Jt to watch STEP UP 2!! OMG! <3
haha, managed to steal a not so little glance today at the korean restaurant i went to :D
they were showing the whole show on their laptop! omg! xD
can't wait man! and im so gonna shop tmr! not real shopping mind, but window shopping :D

ohh yeah, and i have a real surprise for everyone! :D
HAHAHA. won't tell your anth. those going out with me tmr will be able to see (:

AND ABIGAIL! haha, i think we got Jessa addicted =D

"For every question, there is an answer that is neither right nor wrong"

2008-03-09T09:44:00.001-07:00

Finding something that was lost;it's difficult.
Losing something that you found; it's painful.

But hurting someone without intending to? That hurts the most.
And if I could turn back time, I'll erase all my mistakes.
Find the answers to undo my wrong, to perfect my right.
Mend my bitterness, cover up the tracks of hurt.

But the chances of that happening is 0% right?

Trying to be a better person, better friend, better sister, better daughter, it's like breaking glass and getting cut by it.

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2008-03-05T07:57:00.000-08:00

I know I said I might not be able to, but I'm still gonna.

Jeannette left for Perth today.

We rushed to the airport straight after lessons with Rachel, Kez, Jy, Che, Chu and Mx. The taxi uncle was nice enough to speed up cos' we told him we were rushing for time.. :D
Met Jeannette at Budget Terminal and sorta well, talked awhile before the others came.

Took pictures and gave her her gifts.. She looked so chic today in her specially-made-one-of-a-kind family t-shirt (with a BIG heart and her family inside it), pants, flats and eyeliner! Gosh. I was so darn surprised she actl put on eye-liner o.o LOL! Dear Jeannette! :D
Haha, and the whole time she was like a busy business woman, taking on so many calls and opening her presents and talking to us and taking photos everywhere! xD

Her parents were really nice to let her stay outside the boarding gate till it was wayy past time to board xD
And then.. well, I guess it was then that it really hit me that she's really going away.. and won't be back till December-but only for a visit. She was hugging evryone when Jou Teng started crying.. And well, after that, no matter how hard I tried, the tears just fell. I didn mean to actl, I wanted Jeannette to go in before crying, but I guess it was just so hard. To others it may seem like nothing much, like the crying thing, but the thing is I don't cry. At least, not where my friends or family can see me. But Jeannette, my dearest friend, leaving. It's so difficult not to miss her. She hugged me twice before she left. Even when she had gone inside, we still stood around the Budget Terminal.

And now, it just feels odd, weird, out-of-sorts. She has probably already arrived in Perth, getting used to the new environment. And well, the rest of us are still (ok, it's cliche but..) living in the ghost of the memories she's left for us..
Her laughter in the corridors, jokes in the canteen, quirks along the parade square, sacarstic-yet-funny remarks in the classroom of 2g2'07. So much more, and perhaps even more when she comes back to visit. But yeah, it won't be the same anymore I guess..

I can still see the last image I saw of her today;giving us this megawatt-smile and waving to everyone there whilst luging on to her black luggage bag with her pink sweater slung across her forearm..

2008-03-03T06:00:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes, just by saying goodbye, you free yourself from all the pain & hurt"

Nothing much today.. just got back SS and Lit paper. Did badly for Lit, but quite ok for SS. Grr, im pissed for Lit man, cos' i didn write enough :x
ARGH. if it's not my topic sentence then it's my lack-of-elaboration. >_> wth.

2 days left.

Tmr's mass run day again. Hope that it can rain, then i dunnit to run :D
Too tired these days to actually run. Anw, today's weather was pretty nice. Quite chilly just now :D

Sometimes, when I'm most afraid, I'll withdraw myself from the world. Hide back in the shell which I know so well, oblivious to the world.

2008-03-02T07:22:00.000-08:00

AWARD CEREMONY DAY.
And the winner is JJC. Ok, they deserve it i guess, considering that their animation is actually nice..
Guess it's better than the other school that was the top 2. LOL, i was praying hard it wasn't that school. LOL!
Ok, anw, CONGRATS TO DEE COLONY ANW for being the TOP TEN FINALIST!
WE ALL LOVE DEE COLONY! <3
xD

After the award ceremony, we went to J8 to watch "L, Change the World". It's nicer than I expected :D Now i wanna watch the first two Death Note shows! OMG. L is SO CUTE. haha! with his cute kebab of sweets! <3
And he is darn smart! :D
OH YA. and pple! u must go try the pasta with cheese frm the cinema, it is SUPERB. with bacon and tons of nacho cheese it's the <3!!

Tomorrow will be the last wk of Term 1. Came faster than I expected, but not as fast as last year.

"Nothing ever occurs by chance. It has a reason and purpose behind it."

2008-03-01T06:39:00.000-08:00

FIRSTLY: GO DEE COLONY! JIAYOU FOR TMR! WE'RE ALL BEHIND YOU! DEE COLONY YOU'RE THE BEST! :D

tomorrow's the award ceremony, and WE ARE ALL SUPPORTING DEE COLONY! :D
after that might be going out.. haha, oh god, i haven't done a single piece of hwrk. T_T and i dun feel like doing it either.

Anw, went to Mandy's hse today xD haha, went to eat lunch with che before that. YOSHINOYA! <3>
but mostly cute. haha. went down to the function rm and watched STEP UP !! OMG <33>
yep, ltr baked cookies for awhile before i left for ballet <3

AND OMG. mandy showed us pointe work today! so cool! :D
haha.

"Look beyond the harsh words into the love woven between."

2008-02-29T06:47:00.000-08:00

JEANNETTE'S LAST DAY A.K.A THE LEAP DAY.

Bear with my cheesy-nest and corny-ness.
Jean's last day. One of my oldest and dearest friends. Gone are the days that she'll joke around with us in the canteen whilst we're eating the 2nd stall food/noodle stall. Gone are the days whereby she'll play around with us and delight everyone with her jokes. Gone are the days...
I'm going to miss her so.. TT_TT Everyone can't bear for her to leave at all.. Today's the last day we'll see her in a Crescentian uniform, and her studying as one..
Jeannette, we'll miss you very much. Please don't ever forget us. We might go to Perth one day to join you there in the University :D
Thank you so much for the letter. I was so touched while reading it, and I'm so glad.
I promise.

Despite that you're straighforward in your words and direct with your opinions, it is all these and more that we love you so and make you one of our very good friends. Australia may be thousands of feet away but our friendship is never a mile apart. Always in our hearts, Jeannette Ho Yen Wai.
Wednesday would be the last day that I'm going to see you for a very long time.
Thank You for everything that you've done, all the memories that you've left with us.

I'm writing this today because I don't think I'll be able to on Wednesday.

Enjoy the ignorance and freedom, because the sweet and comfort of it is about to be lifted.

2008-02-27T08:05:00.000-08:00

Exhausted.

Getting back all the common test papers now. Did ok for Chinese, though I think that I could have done better. Anw, I think we're going to get our Socials Studies and English papers back tomorrow. TT_TT

Short update today cos' BIBI asked me to :D

Sometimes I think that true love doesn't exist. Love doesn't last a lifetime, doesn't last an eternity. It takes two to love each other forever, for both to love each other equally. But that doesn't really happen. It's all a make-up fantasy that only happens in books and dramas. Nothing like that ever happens. Only bitterness, betrayal, disappointment and sadness comes after the first spark that brightens up your life. I don't believe in everlasting love. Because no one has ever proven that. Because no one has ever shown me that it exists in this world. Because it doesn't live anymore.

Bibi! when u get his email you'd better go and talk to him huh! xD
(*sorry, i rly dunno what else to say? :D )

2008-02-26T03:56:00.000-08:00

OK! my first post since those BLOODY common tests. Shadn't comment much on those >_> alrd complaint enought.LOL.

Well, today's the last day of common tests. YAY XD And i've finally watched finish "Why Why Love". Not as nice as "Devil Beside You" but still, not bad.. quite sad :x cos' the guy although has a chronic illness, doesn't want the girlfriend to find out, and instead tries to make her hate him so that he can all the more prevent her from knowing..
Ohh, gonna watch "My Girl" ltr :D I KNOW I KNOW. i'm slow -.- but i dun like to watch what other pple are watching :D

After reading che's blog, i am SERIOUSLY PISSED OFF. If the information frm wiki is right, and i'm sure the pictures don't lie, then WHAT THE HELL!?!

First off, HE'S AN ACTOR FOR GOD'S SAKE! and a damn good one. Why wld you want to PICKET his funeral when he's already passed on? No matter what a person's done in his life, he deserves to be forgiven when he's left the mortal world. A murderer, a drug addict, a robber, they are all forgiven, so why is an innocent actor convicted because he acted the role of a gay? It's his job, and probably his passion that he does acting. He of all people should be given a tribute to, just like what they did in academy-awards.

Next off, what the hell's wrong with being gay?! They are still people who live normal lives like you and me, they still love and hope as do we. Why can't the world just stop discriminating against people who are DIFFERENT?! What's other people's business if who they love are different? What's other people's business if their choices and different? They are still like us, and should be seen throught the eyes of the world as any other person. So, please, if you have nothing else to do, just go stare at the wall or something, quit thinking of ways to make others hate people who are different.

Thirdly, A CHURCH FOR GOD'S SAKE. A sanctuary of serenity, of peace. A place where people find their answers, where people look to for guidance. A place of God. He loves all His children equally. I'm not Christian, but I know that for one, God loves us all the same. If even a church are going against people who are different, then what is the world coming to?

And lastly, look into your own direction. Don't follow what others think and do just because everyone else is doing it. If one person does something against your moral values or principles, stand your ground, don't shut your mouth because you are afraid of how others look at you. There are so many others in the world doing the same thing as you, so stand up for what you think! Listening to others and getting brainwashed isn't helping the world become a better place.

I expect the world will become blind of the reason it was created in the first place.

OK. now i feel slightly better. But still too damn pissed off. Won't comment anymore on this here, after all, I don't have that much a right either do I?

Ok, that's it for today xD Now that I'm free I'll prob post alot of random stuff. HAHA. :D

My poem.
Sometimes I open my bedroom door
And see an endless road
Filled with darkness; light
Coming from the sides

Behind me is a road of bitterness
Hatred, misunderstandings, betrayal
Everything I've decided to
Put behind me

Yet letting go is the hardest
Sometimes it clings on
Refusing you to put it down
And move on

But the starting is always
The place to end it all
Pick yourself up
From where you first fell down

The pain, struggle all won't matter
So long as those beside you
Hold you, help you.
Lending you their support.

Forgiveness takes courage
Understanding, love, hate
Difficult it seems;
But it is the easiest route to walk on

Look past their wrongdoings
And cross over the threshold
Towards that void
Where both can be done

Open your eyes to the world
And see clearly the brightness
That have always lit up
Our lives.

But never shut out
The darkness threatening
To destroy everything you hold dear
To destroy you.

Because it is the darkness
After the light
That gives us
The sweetest moments.

2008-02-15T06:28:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! XD
haha. Thanks so much to those who gave me V-day presents! Uh, but there are some presents that are unknown to me, cos' i rly dunno who gave them O_O
Sorry if I haven't thanked you personally ok!
It's really sweet of everyone to buy me presents <3333>

AND NEXT A VERY SUPER IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT!
VOTEVOTEVOTE FOR DEE COLONY @ www.nemation.sg!
VOTE ONCE ONLINE AND ONCE BY SMS! C8!
GO SEE THE CLIP AND YOU'LL BE SUPER IMPRESSED! IT'S MADE OUT OF SAND SOMEMORE OK!
SO GO VOTE! AND TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS/RELATIVES/FAMILY TO VOTE FOR THEM!
DEE COLONY! > GO VOTE NOW!!

On to today's post:

Total Defence Day-15 Feb 2008'.
Commemorated to remind all Singaporeans about World War II.
I understand it's importance and all, but seriously, at least EXPLAIN the whole point of the exercise BEFORE asking us to actually do it!
So what, make us sit in the terribly hot sun to fry our hair and pluck grass for god-knows how long before telling us WHY we have to sit for how long?!
>_> this makes the whole exercise kinda pointless lurh.
Haish, I don't wanna comment much lah.

Anw, my brother was totally sweet on Valentine's Day! He hid my present in my pencil box the night before for me to find on Valentine's Day! :D It's a heart-shaped necklace with a small "T" inside the heart. OMG <333

Had duty on Valentine's Day. Quite fun this yr, cos' we sold quite a number of balloons! xD HAHA. went around the school carrying large foil balloons and surrounding pple to ask them to buy! :D
Ohh yeah! and Regina has a new blog! :D COOL. haha, and it's so nice lah her blogskin! xD

There's A-maths remedial tmr @ 8am. >_> Gone is my sleeping time. Then I have tution at like 1pm-3pm before ballet class at 5.15pm-6.15pm.
Common Test next Thurs :x Hope I do better than all my last tests!!
I already failed 3 luh. T_T
But, no point in lamenting for my loss. Gotta look forward and work hard! JIAYOU!
Kampatte to everyone! xD

OMG HANA YORI DANGO!!! <333333
AHHH!

ok, i'll have to stop here, my eyes are drooping from the bloody med.

My friend, there's always hope in this world. Don't give up and never, ever let it all go.

If there's anything at all
To share with us
Tell us. Talk to us.
Don't keep it all inside.

Though you can lock up
And hide the key to your heart
Your problems will one day
All re-appear once more

By then it might be too late
To save yourself
From the heartbreak and bitterness
That would overcome you...

Shout out to the world
All your insecurities, all your hatred
Let it all out at once
So that none will be left

To blacken your heart
To weaken your mind
You'll have our strength
To fight on..to fight on...

Always remember that we're here
Always here for you...
We will stand strong
For you..

A helping hand will be there
A listening ear ready
For anything at all
My friend

I hate the flu T_T

2008-02-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

First off-THANKS TO JOU TENG FOR HELPING ME WITH MY BLOG POSTS! XD
<333

OK, next: TMR IS NEMATION VOTING DAY! Everyone go votevotevote! :D
Kampatte!!!

Now for today's post:

I have the bloody flu TT_TT Damn it man. Since like CNY. Becoming wayyy awful now lurh. I hate it! My mum's forcing me to take MC tmr and possibly Wed. >_>
Can't anw, since wed gt physics test! *Like that's sth to rejoice for*
And the only good things abt CNY was to collect hongbao and watch HANA YORI DANGO! OMGOSH!!! :DDDD
IT'S THE LOVE!<333
AHHH! IM IN LOVE WITH THE SHOW! XD
Thanks to Che once again for lending me ur tablet! I very *bu she de* to return you today :D heh heh heh.

Missed today's arcade + kbox outing with the rest TT_TT cos' actl i was feeling kinda horrible during lessons so i sms-ed my mum to pick me up after school.. bt then when sch really ended, i felt wayy better. But my mum was alrd there >_>
HAISH. nvm la, shall join ur another time then : D

ohh yeah, and record man, first time i nap in the afternoon & slept for almost 5hrs. But still feel like sleeping. LOL!

Randoming today _____

Valentine's day is coming! It's kinda fun lah, this day, cos' like it's a day to celebrate with ur loved ones. But i think some pple are kinda... exaggerating??
you can spend $600 just to buy roses for your girlfriend? UHHHH.
Go read the Newspaper man everyone! I sorta agree with the "Girls' Talk" section. What she says abt Valentine's Day I mean. Not all, but some : D

Ok, that's all for today. I just studied like 15pages of SS and my brain feels like it's exploding alrd.

And sometimes, it feels like I can't take it anymore. Like there's nothing worth living for.

I know that somehow, you are always with me.

2008-02-08T05:45:00.000-08:00

ps tracy.. yr cbox not working so i leave a message here XD delete later.
btw i fixed yr entries le ^^
JT

First post! 02.02.08

2008-02-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

OK. so new blog, new url, new everything.. as i've mentioned in my tagboard, it's cos' im so sick of my old blog le.
NEW YEAR. NEW START RIGHT? XD
that's what i keep telling myself anw.

So. Right now I'll be putting up quotes as usual, but not quite in the same style as last time, and not everyday. xD
AND OMG. I love my new blogskin! :D Been looking for one like it for quite long, haha. Finally one almost-perfect one on DANCE! XD
HAHA, so coincidental. Mandy also just changed her blogskin! Which btw, is very cute! ((:

Ohh! Today was the 1st part of the NEmation show! :D
Saw Mandy, QN, Chu and Che! Hope your win! :D JY OK!
Then can go to USA for sightseeing! ^^
HAHA.

Right now listening to "Until You Return" by F.T Island-yes I know chu, their songs are nice. :D
AND JAEJIN IS CUTE! XD ok, shadn't rant here, dunnoe if im allowed since i only have 10% xD

I'm seriously not really looking forward to CNY larh. Only gd thing is that CHE wld lend me her tablet to watch HYD! XD OMG THANK YOU CHE! I LOVE YOU! :DDD
DOMYOUJI-SAN AND MAKINO-CHAN! XD
ANDANDAND HANAZAWA RUI!!! :DDDDD
AHHHH! I WANNA WATCH NOWNOWNOW! T-T

Hurhur, so ironic man. I'm finally slight fangirling..Like towards JAEJIN and HYD! XD
But OMGOMG!!! :DDDD

haha, ok. my first post shall end somewhere here. Still gotta go like, STUDY . x_x

"I know that you'll never return. I don't hope for it anymore."