Saturday, June 28, 2008
*Ramblings and rants. Stop reading here if you hate em.
Don't ask me what's wrong or anything like that please, not if you want to see my crying. It's nothing a friend can solve.Sometimes I really do wonder,
Why am I still doing this; trying time and again, time and again?
I don't know why I don't give up and just wish it all away, or close my eyes and forget the whole thing. Cause keeping it memory, be in willingly or unwillingly hurts badly.
Maybe it's just me that's unconsciously wanting to prove something out of the whole thing but why now? It'll never end and I already know it, it'll just remain there till the end comes. So why am I still trying?
Night after night I sit there and think if it's worth it at all. It's wearing me down, wearing me thin and I just can't take it.
I already knew the answer long ago I guess, in my heart or somewhere in my soul- I already saw what I needed to know, took what I didn't have, but it doesn seem to be enough.
In a circle I seem to run, but when would I slow down and stop to see that there's nothing ahead anymore?
Would it all come crashing down one day? And then maybe, I could run away and disappear?
But I already know I wouldn't run.
Because even till the end, I'll still fight and take the brunt of the fall.
I've always believed that seeing is believing. That logic made the most sense and magic gave the most hope, but in all the fairytales alike, would it really come back to the happy ending?
The heroine always does the right thing and corrects all the wrong, but in real life, would it ever end up like this?
A dramatic story of a girl struggling to stay afloat the storms of her past and present; a fairytale doesn't seem to suit the ending, now does it? It's not me, no. It's just an example- but I guess I've already proven my point then.
Keep on wishing and one day you'll just stop hoping. For all you know, the stars in the heavens above us could all just be a false impression.
SuicidalBallerina
06:38
